Day 73 13 days without a drink Had the mother of all urges to fap over porn but thankfully didn't. There is clearly a void in my life I'm trying to fill but at the moment I'm not clever enough to identify it yet alone resolve it. I'm going to re-read man's search for meaning by Viktor Frankl to see what answers that might produce. I just wish I could find something that gives me the same buzz as getting undivided attention off beautiful women seem to produce for me. It's strange why I do love it so much because I'm not particularly sexual, even if they wanted to have sex with me, at the moment it would be a toss of a coin wether I could satisfy them or not..There is a definite trigger for my erections as there is for anything else. At the moment hot women that can make me laugh are my kryptonite. I think I may be what is called a sapiosexual. Women with great minds wether it be sexual, social, intellectual or even creative have an unhealthy power over me, especially if they have a body to match.