[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

I am on day 1

 

Day 1/90. Long day but made it through.

 

3/90
Failure is not acceptable this time

 

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day 1.

 

Day 1

 

Day 88 28 days without a drink.
I had a strange compelling urge to shoot my load all day yesterday but thankfully didn't though it was very close. The same thing happens to me when I am on a fitness drive or abstaining. I could be on a fitness regime eating all the right foods than our of nowhere I feel the urge to binge on junk food. This happens even when I have lots of good food in the house and I have to go out and get the junk food. I just seem to have a destructive urge to undo all the good work I have done at the final hurdle.What the root of it all is I have no idea, but I would love to find out.

 

Day 3 check in. Every day a reason to smile and keep up the fight!

 

Hey, i think it is common and natural in a way. It is like when you go for long run. The last 1km sometimes is mentally unbearable. Keep the fight up man, it is a damn mental only thing!

 

I relapsed im starting again from today 0 /90

 

I hate myself I really do , I got hard on's and I let them pass but they build up actually the urge which cuse me a relapsed today , I was about to go on day 2 but I failed miserably .

but nothing can be done soooo
0/90 I WILL COME STRONGER THIS TIME

 

Dia 2

 

Day 6

I used to be there too man! I believe there IS a healthy balance between having healthy sexual relationship and not overdoing it. I used to think that you should be able to have sex many times per day and that is a sign of sexual health, but no normal man can keep up with this for long - maybe a few days but thats about it. I have also felt a complete flatline when I first started doing NoFap. We have conditioned our brains to think that everything valuable is sex and by looking at people have sex many times a day we start believing this is the new normal. It is not, and on top of that you start running in those sexual issues after being addicted for some time, and now you can't do that multiple times a day easily, which depresses you and you start squeezing harder so you can orgasm and the spiral goes on ...

After cutting this off with a relapse here or there for over a year. I can say that you gradually condition your brain back to normal sexual behaviors. I currently enjoy sex very much, but I don't need to have it constantly or even every day. As long as you stick to being clean MOST of the time you will be good! but when I say CLEAN I mean NOT Masturbating. PORN IS COMPLETELY OFF THE TABLE You have to remove that completely. Masturbation - if it's rare - it's fine. If that is your main source of sexual pleasure - then the brain will start thinking this is it again and you may have problems with actual sex.

But yes there is a healthy balance and it takes time to get there but you guys will!

I wish you all strength! I am on my way for another full 90 days.

 

5/90 I was away after a week-long solo vacation. I am back now with a vengeance. I am going to kick the shit out of PMO and give it the final knock-out punch.

 

Day 2

 

Day 1/90

 

Day 70

 

Day 70!!!

 

Day 11

 

3/90