Day 3 @Mike10classic If your goal includes no p, then your choice to restart is helpful...up to you really, though, I'd say.
Day 4, about 5 hours from now, to be specific. It starts to become difficult around day 6-8. But, if I keep lifting weights I can transmute that energy into building muscles. Yesterday was resting day. Today I promise to myself I will work out.
I have improved my drawing skills, started to draw more and spent less time on the internet. I thought if I first work out and then afterwards I practice my drawing, then I can stay away from the computer for longer periods and not get stuck in old patterns. After 2 months of little to no computer time I don't feel as much need to sit down with it wasting time on useless YT videos or P.
I struggle with that too, quite annoying isn't it. I try to make sure I do something relaxing before going to bed, like reading a book, but it doesn't always work.
Okay day 1/90. Lesson learned from violating the PMO. No porn means NO PORN. Happy Thanksgiving guys and keep the fight going
Yes very annoying, and exhausting Sometimes i wish i could shutdown my brain lol I'm loosing the battle mentally. I thought about PMO a couple of times as an option to escape stress and boredom. I'm working really hard, life runs at a fool speed, i can't keep the pace. I can't find time to do anything else. Part of that is being a perfectionist, add to that huge amount of work. Maybe i should change my job. I just can't stop thinking about a problem, once i encounter a hurdle i give it my all to find a solution. This sucks my life force and makes me wanting to PMO to forget work and to slow down life. I think I'm burned out. While being in that state i can't even read a paragraph....sigh. The good thing is that i resisted the idea of using porn to take the edge off. I will limit my work time and i don't care if get all tasks done arlt time, i don't even care if the work is done properly or not. Day 19, still going.
My Second Workout is Done! I also write this down to remind myself that by keeping my promise to train, I also prove to myself that I can trust myself. If I can trust myself doing this, I am capable of trusting myself to not watch P or do MO.
That sounds really stressful. I'm impressed you're still going strong. And yeah it sounds like you're burned out. If you are able to find some moments to look for other jobs that could be the best thing for you. Our modern society is so damn stressful and stress is very destructive. I mean look at the work culture in Japan, it's insane. It's inhuman. People commit suicide. We aren't meant to live like this. And all the preassure to constantly pay bills and we all need food on the table every day. I want to see myself in a future where I go back to a much more simple/primitive lifestyle and live along with nature. A lifestyle where time is almost (or literally) irrelevant.
