Today will be day 8 for me. I'll be traveling soon which will bring about a lot of potential triggers so I'll have to be extra careful.
Day 0 Again. Changes need to be made. NOW. That's it. I'm cutting out the root of the problem. I have too many things around me that is more or less sexualized. I recently bought a new game and I found the characters to be too sexualized which is not good for me. I'm not playing it any more. In fact I won't play anything. All of it will be stuffed down in a box. I am currently deleting all the porn that I have on my computer and on my harddrive. I did it before but then started collecting again. So stupid. It doesn't matter how attractive I think these girls are. It has no deeper meaning, they are only pixles on a screen anyway, and none of it is love. I only find porn to be evil. Almost all of it is negative in some way or form just to make you feel like shit, or to make you feel insecure about yourself or something. How useless. I have to build up my energy levels again. I won't let this happen again. It's time for change. Otherwise this will be an endless cycle. I've had this problem since last summer. But it's always a choice. I want to find a good porn-blocker for the firefox browser, I don't want to use anything else because I'm used to it. Do anyone have any good advice on how to block as many porn sites as possible? I will now continue this journey no matter how painful it will be. It will probably be challangeing but I don't care. Fuck this stupid porn, the hell with it.
Pluckeye has hands down been the best program to create a safe environment for me on my computer. It's a bit intimidating to use at first but there's good documentation on how to get started. Leechblock is a good extension for Chrome and Firefox that has proven to be helpful to me as well.
Thanks! I will check it out later but I found something else that worked for firefox. Most important is to block the major sites for now.
Day 7 Still a lot of brain fog. Going to go watch a movie with a friend, will probably have a couple beers. Should go okay.
I really empathize with you on this. I recently made a decision that I will never watch porn again from the 10th of November. I am tired of the recovery-relapse cycle too. One thing I can say is you need to read read and read. Gain knowledge and brainwash yourself with rebooting material. Check out this workshop that helps build a good foundation for permanent recovery: https://www.recoverynation.com/recovery/recovery_workshop_contents.php Also, investigate the emotional aspect of your compulsion. Usually, the root of compulsive porn watching is emotional. Unresolved emotions such as shame, guilt, and anger are notorious for keeping someone stuck. Willpower will only get you so far.
I agree 100%. Thanks for the advice I will read it. Hiding away pornography and pretend it's not there isn't working either. I have to get rid of every little piece and it won't be easy but I have to do it. It's the only way. There are too many illusions in life and life is short, and so many unpredicted things can happen that shortens it. This type of addiction can make people turn emotionally numb or emotionally blind even. And to be in this addiction can make you feel like it's the only way to get "happy" but it's just a "fix" that only breaks a person down over time. So yeah we really need to Brainwash ourselves in a sense by Cleaning our minds from the dirt and the illusions that blinds us from seeing the truth of what life is and what it should be.
