[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day8

 

Despite my failure I fixed some problems during my latest streak.
1. My sleeping pattern was completely off. Now it's fixed.
2. I didn't eat properly and only at the wrong time. I've also fixed that.
3. I've had more insights about myself and why I've used P as a false security.

This lay the ground for my weight training. I can begin again.
I will start a littlebit today but not overdo anything.

Sleeping/Eating Rythm is very important in life, especially when doing NF
when we really need that balance.

 

Thanks man! Yeah I actually feel stronger than last time I slipped. I have realised I've been collecting things and jumped from one "obsession" to another in my life. Often it's physical things. I know there's a deep rooted reason for it.
It's to replace some kind of emptiness within me or to use/collect/buy something as a (false) security.
But happiness can not be found outside of oneself. Not in physical things. I think when I've reached beyond day 90, deleted every single piece of P that are left, in combination with physical training my brain will be rewired (or healed) back to normal way of thinking.
Unnatural environments lead to unnatural behaviours, and unnatural behaviours lead to suffering.

Removing the root / the cause of the problem is the most effective way to end this problem.
The pain you feel when you detach from something that you "need" always hurts. Detachment from something that we are emotionally drawn to always hurts. But in this case it's not detatchment from a loved one. It's detachment from one of the worst type of poisons:
Porn. The word itself stinks.
When we detach from it we can experience the same type of pain as an alchoholic when he pour the liquor down the sink.

It's not you that feel the pain, it's your old self, your false self. Or my false self in this case.
I try to remind myself of this.

 

Day 81 .

 

Day 3

 

Day 4

 

"If you don't program yourself, life will program you" exactly!

And yeah we think too much about how we "feel". Men need to beast up. I need to beast up.
I'm going to get back to my mindset I had back in 2019 when I worked out really well.
I will think like a worrior. A worrior doesn't try to feel if he should do "it" or not. He Just DO what needs to be done.
Is it challenging? YES. Is it painful? YES. Will I do it anyway? YES.

A true worrior do what is right. He do what needs to be done not what is comfortable at the moment.

 

Finally made it to day 7 on this journey

 

I've relapsed. I need to get back on track. Day 0

 

Day 25

 

Day 1

 

8/90 Still holding on despite some anxiety bouts!

 

73/90

 

1/90

 

Day 26

 

Day 0.

 

Day 2/90. Been stressed about my gf might be breaking up with me but I can’t stress about things that I can’t control right now.

 

Day 0

I fell from grace due to a relapse but I intend to strengthen my will and start over again.

 

I also recommend to block and ability to acess to porn . Let someone put password that you will never guess. For me its more mental help, “its makes your brain” to understand he cannot and does not have the abilities to find porn, so the thoughts reduce a lot.
Try adguard for pc and for iphone the normal blocker

 

52 days!