[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Hi friends, back with you again. Was on my longest streak ever but I just slipped up. What got my attention was after the first slip-up I had a second one real quick after that. I don't want to fall back into a major relapse, so signing up for the 90-day to get right back on track. Day 0.

 

After 26 days of no porn and 2xs M I pmo'd . Actually the M alone was a reset but it feels dirtier with porn. That's what happens when I put something in front of my recovery. Starting over.

 

Woohoo! Day 1/90

 

On day 4

 

I relapsed im starting again from 0 /90

 

Day 1

 

79

 

0/90
Can't believe I have to reset again after just 5 days. But once again another lesson learnt. From now on I am not going to use my phone in bed at night. In fact, I will make it a part of my challenge here so that I keep myself accountable. All my relapses in January have happened from 10pm onwards while using my phone.
No phone usage after 10 PM in bed: 0/90

 

Day 6

 

Day 1

 

Day 39

 

My testosterone went sky high at Day 7.
I then watched some images which then lead to videos for multiple hours.. it sucks, but it is what it is.

I was a bout to begin PMO but felt it wasn't worth it.. I didn't want to waste my precious energy on that crap.
So I started to think about how bad I would feel afterwards and I thought about my goals. You don't have to PMO just because you failed.

So I stopped!

I don't have to reset my day counter but I feel this was a failure in a way because I want to go full monk mode.
I have much better self control now than I used to have since I usually would want to "complete" the PMO routine before I could start all over again.. Like a compulsory thing.

Not this time! Changes are real.
Still only one "O" in 45 days. Not even one wet dream so I shouldn't be too disappointed at myself.

Day 0

 

Day 32
My time is about to fly again
Stay strong all, struggling is part of being a human, accept the ups and downs of life.

 

Day 58 today! No urges today.

 

day 2

 

back to 0.

 

Me too bro. It helps some to find a silver lining

 

Day 31
Feeling a sense of achievement , gratefulness to God and all good souls who helped me.

"For where ur treasure is, there will ur heart be also"- Mt 6-21

 

Day 90/90 completed (L1)
I will try my best to keep the streak going.
Being honest with myself, acknowledge the temptations, define counter-measures
Being confident that I can control my own actions and not some pixels on the screen

Good luck, everyone.

 

Day 3