[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

22/90- Another fantastic day. I tempted to say I will never watch porn again but let just take it a day at time.

 

DAY 24

 

Day 18.

I will not PMO today because I feel much better mentally when I don't.

 

Day 4 of my 90 day challenge. Keep on going

 

Day 23



7 August 2022

 

Day 40

 

Day 2

 

yeah my first day you lot!! MY FIRST DAY!! Number 1 out of who knows how many! FIRST - LETS GOOO!

 

Day 2
Energy good though no drive yet
It seems that one lapse may not affect as much as two. As of today I am even score.
Looking forward to build up motivation.
Hit the gym later. Need to feed it.

 

Day 0/90. It’s been 9 years since I first discovered NoFap and I’ve never made it past 16 or 17 days. This addiction is getting old and it’s time to end it!

 

Day 5.
Troubles are shooting up. Urges are coming back strong and fast. The body is filled with lust. I do not want to relapse but hell it is a crazy day. I seriously cannot lose. But man tonight feels like lust will eat and devour me up.
Cannot relapse. No matter the cost.

 

I am so addicted that I need a program beside Nofap. I am going to invest on myself before I lost myself completely

 

Day 0

 

Day 2!! Almost forgot posting today....
I got super busy today so time passed fast.
From my previous attempts from the third day forward things very challenging.

But I'm more motivated than ever, I'm going through dark times in marriage...
Failing is not an option

 

0/90

 

There are a couple things I'd like to address in your post.

First off, don't be so hard on yourself. You're just like everyone else. Secondly, deleting all your sexual images, videos, bookmarks etc. is a great starting point and a step in the right direction. I've purged collections I've had, and sometimes regretted doing such but I know it was for the best. Wholly more satisfying than masturbation is the art of love making. Getting there requires a lot more work and patience, of course, but by far is more worthwhile. Which brings me to my next point. The bulk of your post seems to center around the vapidness of the culture you find yourself in. Since you limit what I can see on your profile, I'll make no assumptions as to the particular culture, but it seems to have a lot of tenets of my own. Capitalist consumer societies place an extreme emphasis on individualism. This serves two goals primarily: to maximize profits (which is the end-all be-all of capitalism) and to remove any responsibility for the outcomes the system always generates. Incidentally, it isolates individuals from the collective, and ironically reinforces a profound feeling of individual powerlessness (when not buying whatever they are selling) despite its rugged individualism creed. I think meaning can be found to some degree on an individual level, but for it to be sustainable the emphasis must be beyond oneself. Breaking the spell begins with recognition, but to begin to dismantle the structures does indeed require vigilance and discipline. The ideology is so pervasive it permeates into our brains. Since the lessons it has taught are so unsatisfactory we must teach ourselves. We live in the information age, utilize this to maximize your agency and to become the person you want to become. The dominant culture may be the most readily available, but it's not the only one in existence. Be part of the counterculture, find liberation in the collective.

 

Midway through day 6, missed my status updates for the past two days. My apologies, but fear not I wasn't on a P&M bender. Remember, one fails to drown in the inundation of sexual imagery on television when you turn the set off. In the past two days, I mostly didn't achieve the daily goals I had set for myself. I cannot dwell on this. I have been lacking motivation for pretty much anything that isn't sleeping in. That said today I'd like to continue cleaning up the house, start reading a new book (at least 50 pages), take the dogs on a nice hike, put the plants I have still in containers in the ground, and go to bed by midnight. I'll let you know how I did tomorrow; early if I can wake up before noon.

 

Day 5 for me, feeling the first urges

 

DAY 25

 

No PO urges - well I don't have a girlfriend so O is almost a given - but I woke up with some wood - so M was a bit tough to resist today. Honestly all that stopped me is the thought of telling y'all that I failed on day 1 . No ways I'm much stronger than that - so I WON. I'm still on track and kicking - haha beat that M - women aren't controlling my life If I can help it.

I've had a lot of males in my family ruin their lives because of bad sexual relationships - I want to end the cycle. So I ran at night after work today (AT NIGHT!!). I need to go pray to God because for me it helps my psyche knowing he is with me in this and my Christian faith makes me feel guilty when I fail.

Ive honestly let this porn issue continue for far too long - lets all beat it a day at a time ok - we're in this together