[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 17 (Season II)

The day started out to be very challenging: Tiredness, low energy and lot's of thoughts.
But after that, a critical thing happened: I learned how to deal with it.
By accepting my state and focusing on relaxing and being present I was able to get back to inner peace.

The biggest reason why we relapse, is because we want to distract our self from the present moment.
If you sustain sober, you realize one of the greatest truths on earth:
How to transmute base metals into gold: That means how to translate a shitty inner state into a great inner state.


#controlyourself

 

Day 6: UN assignment and hair dye

 

Day 16/90. Proceeding.

 

Day 5

 

Day 5

 

DAY 02

 

Day 3 still in the hunt.

 

3 Days

 

Day 1...

 

24/90

 

So sorry to hear that man. Keep going, build up the momentum again.

 

Go hard! We're all with you.

 

Day 2!!!

 

I'm going to have to eat crow & admit I went against all my advice to say that I, once again, relapsed. Day Zero for me.

 

Post-relapse reflection

Ganbatte means "do your best" in Japanese. I need to start telling myself ganbatte instead of "you can do it" because I am simply not doing it. I'm not doing it because I'm not doing my best.

Doing my best requires more than the hope of "you can do it." Doing my best requires self-discipline & fortitude.

In the wise words of Yoda, "Do or do not. There is no try." I've been trying - and failing - this whole time. I need to start doing my best.

 

7/90 - first week

 

Day 9/90

 

Day 5 going good. Deciding to cut out alcohol for the duration of the challenge. Have been going on a few dates, is that technically against the challenge?

 

3 days in, almost 4. Time to set a large goal, something to achieve. Go forgold!

 

ABSOLUTELY NOT! (Okay, if you are abstaining from O and having sex on these dates, then yes)
I've heard it said that the opposite of addiction is connection so making new connections will actually help you.