[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 58!

 

Day 10/90

 

Day 4

 

Update: Brothers, I want to tell you guys that I slip. However, it's not a relapse and I know I must let myself to be more productive and stay out of stress. I can't say I slip because of a "high urge" but it is because of how I programmed my mind for long period of time. We are not defined by the type of porn we watch, or by something else external. I pray for all of us to live our life in fulfillment.

 

Day 40 almost half way there

 

Day 18

 

Forgot to update, today is the 16th day, but recent days are tough. Pray for me, brothers!

 

Day 59!

 

Day 11/90

 

Day 5

 

Day 41 my wife told me last night I have been much more affectionate towards her and she is proud of my progress. I am proud of all of our progress though even if it is day 0 for you on here

 

Brothers, I just wanna share with you all that I have felt really bad in the past week. I fell back into thoughts about the "trash" many times this week and almost relapsed. I didn't engage in PM but felt a little O which made my brain junked for quite a while after that. I hate this feeling, and they made me feel bad. I even felt like my soul had been drained off by that. So I want to restart my reboot journey even though I haven't relapsed physically. I would mark today as Day 0.

Brothers, please feel free to comment on my post cuz any of your support means a lot to me!

 

New here

 

Day 59. Due to various circumstances I didn't workout for a few days and unfortunately nearly relapsed earlier today. I started to question myself, whether my struggle was really worth anything, and why it even mattered. Until today I hadn't realized just how essential consistent exercise is for my sobriety. I feel shaken but now I am aware of the importance of my workouts. I am really just grateful that I was able to pull myself out of that hole before it was too late. To ground myself, I went for a run and spent some time outdoors practicing mindfulness and listening to my body and the world around me. During this time I met my pushup goal of 25 pushups in one set which I did outside on the asphalt to help reinforce my will.

I've come really far, further than ever before. I think I became a little complacent and forgot just how difficult overcoming an addiction can be. This is one of, if not the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Our struggle requires work, lots and lots of work. Every day. It takes immense amounts of work to recognize that you have an addiction, and even more so to accept yourself regardless. Making an forum account demands great courage, and logging here every day should not be underestimated. I think that I underestimated the amount of work that I had put in, and so I am going to post here every day, since I haven't been great about logging consistently.

Let this be a reminder that our struggle to be free of addiction is nothing short of incredible, and of the unfathomable strength it requires to never give up. No matter how many times you relapse, how many times you question yourself, keep struggling. Don't give up.

 

Day 60! 2/3 done! Yay!

 

Day 12/90

 

Day 6

 

Day 20 NO PMO
Urges haven’t been bad but know that could change on a dime. Grateful for the group.

 

Day 42. Keep struggling brothers nothing that is worth it is easy! We are more than our addictions