End of Day 11, now on Day 12. Damn time flies, 11 whole days since I used. Got the slight headache today, that comes with the withdrawal period. Feeling a bit like a failure today, feeling like I want to be more "successful" in life, but I know that that is just the effects of pornography upon me. These feelings are slowly, tepidly cooling. And even if these feelings of failure are true, then how come I'm on Day 12? Isn't this success? Isn't being FREE from pornography, an addiction that I have quit and overcome, the greatest success and ultimate achievement of my life? Night time plan of isolating my electronic devices from my home is really helping, so will continue to do this until the beginning of July '23. and see where I'm at from there. On a side note, I am beginning to learn that everything is about timing, and that you can't rush the things you want to have and see in your life. It sometimes feels like things aren't working out or that the universe is trying to stop you from getting to where you want to be and see. But the reality is that when the time is right, everything will fall into place. You just gotta keep doing the right thing everyday, keep your mind steadily turned towards where you want to be and see, and faithfully let the universe do what it was created to be: To take care of you.
mate I can imagine how frustrated you must feel. But stay hopeful in the assurance that we are equipped with everything we need to solve our issues. It might take time and right timing, but it will eventually happen as long as you are dedicated to the cause.
5/90. Feeling kind of down today, regretting all the time and energy I spent on PMO in the past. All I can do now though is focus on what I can accomplish going forward.
