Day 18/90 (72 total) I quit alcohol a year ago for a bunch of reasons. NoFap was one, and so that I could "feel my feelings" was another. A month ago I started seeing personal trainer. The regular workouts so far made a big difference to my mood and energy. The hard part is going to be to keep going consistently -> and remaining injury free, I have had issues with one shoulder before, which pretty much immediately came back when I started working out, so am trying to strengthen that before getting tooooo nuts. Also I'm doing a 2 year bible reading plan along with the rest of my church, which has been great
Like @EndPornLiveLife I quit drinking (about two years ago for me). I found that booze and porn just reinforced each other so it was easier in a way just to quit both. I've mostly stopped watching tv, especially news which was only making me frustrated and depressed, and replaced that by reading a lot more (classics, non-fiction, sci-fi, whatever as long as it is enriching to the mind and soul). I've never been into exercising but now I try to at least take a walk every day to get my body moving and also connect with nature a bit. Most importantly for me is I've begun meditating regularly. It has helped me cope with various chronic problems I have which used to send me into porn as a way of temporarily escaping (which of course in the long run only made things worse).
Great! I am also doing that: exercising and building a relationship with God. The problem as you said is difficulty in being a disciplined man but we will get there.
Pangs to pull up your browser and search for porn are your body's way of saying, "I'm Free From Pornography!". The feeling to want to look at porn is PROOF that your are FREE from pornography. You don't feel the pangs when you are deep in porn, because you are exactly that: Deep in the porn! Embrace the pangs, for they are the body's way of telling you I AM FREE.
Day 16 done, onto Day 17. Locked in, feeling the urges to pull up some porn on my browser but I'm realising that: 1. I am not the urges 2. There is no genuine pleasure in pornography - it's just an illusion 3. My life is so much better now that I am FREE from the prison and ADDICTION of pornography Pornography will either make me or break me, it's an everyday decision to control and keep this ADDICTION in a submissive choke hold. NO going back, I have my whole life ahead of me to live. One session is too much and a thousand is not enough. I'm dialled in, this is it, no turning back and no more negative effects of pornography upon my whole life and being. Let's go <3
Day 17: Wanted to write a quick report before I go to the gym. Urges today, strongest they have been for a couple of weeks. But I had my journal of quotes to help put me back in the position I want to be, to help me see through the "noise" of my addiction pounding on the door to my mind and body and soul. This helped tremendously, and I am so so proud of myself - not only for successfully dealing a major blow to my addiction, but in the fact that my plan of resolve is working!
