The brain is an amazing thing. It takes what should be the propagation of the species and gives you a reward for using it. A powerful one, at that. Powerful enough to make one feel like a slave to their own instincts, no matter how many times you try to tame them. The word 'no' is not recognized by them, especially shortly after, for one reason in another, the instincts get their way. It is impossible to retreat from this endless battle, so you soldier on constantly fending off attacks, with the goal to cause a stalemate. Which is almost the worst part. The realization that a somewhat innocent decision you made in your early teen years has set you up for a life-long battle against yourself. Alas, the course is set, and there's no use whining about it. Venting about it on an online forum? That seems like an acceptable thing to do. This is TheRealRubberDuck from the front lines of day 0, eager for easier times ahead. Over and out.
Day 11. The journey continues. I've already noticed changes regarding how my decisions are benefitting me.
Day 16 Thought of the day: "The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are."
day 46, pretty much halfway. Think i’ve been in the flatline a little bit, the will hasn’t been any stronger to complete this though as I know how much good it’s doing. There’s been challenges recently, downloading social media, unknowingly looking at females as the main purpose - then consciously reminding my self this isn’t a good thing to do leading me to delete them again ♂️. A couple days ago I almost had a girl come over and I think God stepped in a saved me by it not happening. This would’ve ended the streak for sure. I haven’t had any urge to watch porn again or even mastrubate. The will is too strong since i’ve got here. I’m lucky that I’m quite active and play a sport, so i’m training a lot. But still trying to keep myself occupied with other activities. Still have some time to go but I know i’ll get there - 90 days is the target but not going back to porn and even having to masturbate is the true goal for the rest of my life. I know this will benefit my life and relationships with people so much and I know it will and has for many Fapstronauts. Just my thoughts as I reach the halfway point of this challenge brothers. The willpower of our minds can conquer anything we choose to.
Day 17 Thought of the day: "Never give up on a dream because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway"
Yesterday night i went to a marriage reception. I was at day 16 yesterday. I wore a tight inner and tight outfit. After a while, i felt a pain in my testicles, lower abdomen and groin area (Blue Balls). To relieve from pain, i took cold shower. So, My tips for NoFap Fapstronaut: -Don't wear tight inners. -Take cold shower twice.
