day 8 before yesterday i have a major challenge. i was home alone and started to feel bored. so in a indirect form i start to look at pretty ladies on the net. of course i felt a urge to fap. so i was about 15 minutes seating in front of the pc... thinking about opening porn pages but at the same time i just couldn´t do it. i felt a huge amount of fear just to imagine what whould happen if i relapse (again...). so i was in this indecision for some minutes and finally i question myself "what do i want? get rid of this disease. what this disease does to me? it destroys my life". and that was it, i get up from the chair and shut down the pc. man, what a test. it was hard but i made it. keep strong brothers!!!