Day 52/90 it's been a crazy emotional roller-coaster for the last few weeks, but it seems like I'm starting to have an idea as to where all these emotions are originating from.
Hey brother, I'm not the best at advice but I'd say first things first, find your why, your reason for wanting to quit porn. For me twas the negative consequences of it. Just think of what you could lose, maybe it's a current or future wife's trust? Then imagination her walking away from you because she thinks porn is more important to you? Lose respect for you? I mean just think of what you could lose, and ask yourself can porn really replace that?
Awesome bro, that's great really being true to yourself. Next time urges go crazy try to catch yourself before giving in, maybe hit the panic button or really dig deep down and figure out why you're having urges, maybe it's time to find a girl or whatever. Sometimes trying to fight the urges isn't the best solution
Tired of living double standard life...one life in real for those who know me, I never watch porn and the other in virtual for those I'm unknown, I'm addicted to porn... relapsed again...again reset the counter....could have option to reset my life too.
2/90 Lord, increase my trust in You. Grant that my trust in You may never falter. Everything is possible in You, O Lord. Grant that I may conquer sin and that my deeds may always glorify Your Holy Name. Amen.
relapse wednesday. my willpower was weak, don´t know why. now i´m focus again. day 1. let´s go my friends.
So day 14 officially done now Onto day 15... I have been having some really strong urges these past few days and almost slipped up; but I managed to stop myself before relapsing completely. I am beginning to realise that the dopamine hit comes as much; if not more, from the act of looking / thinking about the imagery and action, rather than the act itself... It is as if by the time you are actually looking at those images you are in the thick of a dopamine hit, which is why it is so hard to stop at that point... Must stay mindful and stop myself from looking at or even thinking about it for too long... Onwards...
