[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

32 days complete! I hope you all have a most lovely weekend

 

I realized that i rushed in to quickly into this after my last relapse 2 weeks ago and I am starting to recover quickly. I have been hanging with my friends and I am grateful that my long friendship with you guys has helped me get back on track. Two things to say about today.
1. I rushed back from my relapse and did not think about what i should have done or what caused what i did. I tend to not think with my mind sometimes and it gets the better of me at the end. So, I have decided to start from day 0 today as I have written a list of things that has made me relapse as well as advice from you guys (god bless). I know this is stupid, but I want to get to know what my triggers are and rather replace them with their counterparts until i am fully healed from the wound that is keeping me back
2. My friend suggested to watch some Pewdiepie and I watched his recent video today, which made me really mad as it showed porn games from this one website. Honestly, I only watched 2 minutes without understanding the whole thing until i realized that the sponsored ad was from a porn game website. This serious took a toll on me and what did i do, i check out the website, play one game and that was a trigger. I did want to start from day 0 because of this, but I wanted to start from day 0 because I didn't understand fully what was keeping me back. I understand each and every single thing that makes me relapse and am now having a competition with a friend of mine on who can recover efficiently and more. As an early new years resolution, I am going to beat the struggles that keep me down and achieve 90+ days of no PMO. See you on the other side guys 0/90 once again.

 

Day 0. What once started must be finished.

 

73/90

 

Day 22....
long way to go...

 

61/90...just today pmo is not an option...just today, just today do whatever I have to do in order to not pmo, and good opportunities and good things come if I’m willing to put in the work...this is one hell of an addiction, keep going, don’t give up!

 

19/90

 

I think you should not. Because you didn't do anything with your will, you didn't touch yourself, or didn' see P . If you take this incident as a relaps, Compleating a 90 Days challenge could can be too hard for you. But now with this awareness if this Happens one more time and if you can't not resist that you may consider resetting, I think

 

I think it does. I skip that kind of scenes. They're porn as well I think

56 days ago I did some P and little M without O, couldn't resist to strong urges, and I accepted that as a relaps and resetted the counter

 

---ALL-STAR MODE---
6/90

 

Day 38 done. Been a good day.

 

wise decision. i think every time we are tempted to watch something remotely arousing that´s probably the addictive lurking mind sneaking for food. starve it to death!

 

nop, that´s just your addictive mind wanting to find an excuse to relapse. set it straight. you didn´t relapse. there´s nothing wrong with what happened, just some wierd biological process. keep going. stay focus

 

well, if you intencionally watch porn subs that´s pretty bad. you didn´t relapse but that shit now got into your head and now it will need time to go away. the next days you got to be very careful because you are going to be assaulted by urges/thoughs wanting you to relapse. don´t give in. stay focus. try not stay alone and specially stay busy. don´t let boredom creeps in.

in the future don´t watch anything remotely sexual, only if be accident. the moment you deliberately search for arousing material it´s the beginning of the downfall... first it´s a sip, then an snack... then........

 

2 days

 

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yesterday i had intercourse with my wife and today brain fog with me again pretty much all day. shit, awful feeling . so i guess it´s to soon to engage in any kind of sexual release. i talked with her and we agree to stay abstinence in the next weeks, or at least till i feel ready to have a dopamine rush. i hope tomorrow i´ll feel better.

keep focus brothers. good luck

 

11/90...

 

Day 0. My journey starts today!

 

Day 36/90*.

 

52 day done
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