[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 45/90 halfway there! Let’s keep going brothers!!

 

Day 2 done day 3 about

 

5/90

 

Back at it feeling more confident than ever. Ive been at this for almost two years and am ashamed of that fact. Longest Ive gotten is 69 days. I know this is what I need to do to turn my life around, and Im on a good roll

 

hope is the mistake & mistake is the best teacher, but when all you got is hope in life its good to learn some lesson from them...a hope i also have of completing this time 90 days & out of which 2 days completed...88 more to go

 

Day 1 finished my 14 days and going forward

 

let go!

 

Completed a week today. Wohoo

 

relapsed yesterday after 1 month clean . but i know what happen, i was assaulted on the last days by my old hope of keeping porn in my life in a controlled way. deep down i know the idea maked no sense, but i didn´t found the strenght to ignore it, in fact i start believing in it, so in a non-official way i start to strive for the 90 days hoping to have my girls back. well, that backfire on me, and on a moment of urges i relapsed. man, this shit is strong.

on the other side there was one thing that brought a new light on this. i realized why it´s impossible for an ex-addicted to return to porn: because it´s endless.
when we´re talking about the old magazines and vhs, which have no inerent novelty, the stimulation dies quickly. but when we´re talking about high speed internet + an infinite suply of erotic/sexual material, there´s no fucking way we can ever control this. one snack quickly becomes another snack "oh i miss that scene. and that girl. oh, i have to watch that movies i still haven´t watch...". and we´re back on the same place we´re in today. no, it´s impossible. it´s impossible because it´s endless. fuck you addicted mind, that trick you won´t play on me anymore. this is a path of no return.

day 0

 

Day 17

 

Day 13. Feeling uneasy today.
I have made a list of things to do in life to get motivation.
STAY STRONG

 

18/90....one more day under my belt...

 

Dear warriors,

I just created a new challenge called "The habit changer challenge". If you want improve yourself for the better this is it!

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/the-habit-changer-challenge.210790/

 

Day 9 completed, 10 approaching completion. I seem to have mistyped yesterday, yesterday saw day 8, not 9.

 

57

 

Checkin' in. On day 11.

 

Back to cero, well, it just has been done

 

6 days and a bit grumpy...

 

Day 8/90. The porn clout is disappearing and I'm finally starting to think with a clear mind even though for brief periods of time. Hope this grows and I don't go back to that shitty life again.

 

día 5 en ello. voy mejorando