Day 17/90 Had some little fantasizing, but nothing porn-related. Just a moment with an ex. I hate how I'm so much in my head. But glad the meditation helps. Was watching something on Netflix that had a scene in a strip club and I had no interest in rubbing one out. In fact, I feel like I'm dead below the belt. Hope the little sucker does eventually come back to life towards natural horniness.
Cruising is great. No PMO! I'm well rested, no depression! Loving the celibate lifestyle! Semen is Sacred!
Day 8/90 complete. Felt really anxious and down tofay. Probably my brain withdrawaling from not getting what it wants. Oh well. Moving forward.
The day was hard. Really depressed. I had to compete between withdrawn and study for exam. Never settle with something less when you deserve more. Keep fighting if I dont want to be mediocre.
I failed again after 8 days. Now i realized that i am an ordinary person i cannot help doing that i feel regret but i must be honest, i dont want to tell a lie, i dont want to cheat myself. today is day 0. May god have mercy on me, i really really need help.
Day 18/90. I had some intense dreams last night and halfway thought about doing PMO. When I got out of bed though I just laughed kindly at myself and shook it off. Slowly but surely I can tell I’m getting better. I am not my thoughts. I am strong and I deserve good things in my life. Thanks to everyone here!
First time for a long time. I finished study at 7pm and have the rest of evening to work on new skill, coding and trading. I can not believe how much time I have for myself when I stopped PMO. I started to have confidence and courage to talk to girl now. Beside that, I learn to take cold shower which help me to deal with being uncomfortable. Just do it. Make it another day without PMO.
