90 Day PIED success story

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  1. thikk

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    Summary
    Started using porn infrequently in high school (14-15), joined uni when about 18-19 and had access to internet porn and freedom. Spent about 4 years with pmo, then PIED occurred at about 22-23. Used pills (sildenafil and later when cash started running out tadalafil which wasn't as great) for about 7 years (now 29) while still engaging in pmo until this year March (2020). PMO use was extremely excessive especially in the last few years, didnt realise until I started downloading p this year and I was downloading 100GB in a sitting, I was into a lot of extreme stuff, I was also losing my long term girlfriend (now ex) and failing my post grad studies.

    Nofap streak
    I only had two streaks. Started nofap in March, failed after 30 days and went back to PMO. Then started a new/ the current streak on July 18th. The current streak WAS VERY CLEAN AND HONEST. Completely no p or m, had about 3 incidents where I had thoughts of a p star associated with urges, and 1 instance where I typed in a p star name then left the site. Only issue was low moods which was and is still annoying as I just have to grind it out despite family and friends noticing. Also had sex dreams (3 or 4 in total between day 50-65), and although some got irritating they did not affect much. First forward through nofap; I hit day 90 a day or two ago. Had successful sex today. I can't sleep due to excitement and it's past 12 here, so forgive my rambling.

    Sex experience
    For transparency the sex was with an escort, although I've been approaching and talking to women on tinder and IRL since day 60. I've made good friends, my confidence with women is improving as I get better at ways of making contact. I currently chat and do many activities with a few women. I was not scared when I was with the escort, but I only asked for a bj or hj. During the hj I felt that my penis was just normal i.e. no PIED (I'm trying to avoid any triggering language). And decided to go all the way. Had no problems at all. Was in control the entire time and it felt like sex even though i had a condom on. I'm not sure this counts as complete healing, I'm sticking to the life without pmo. Only engage in sex with women I'm now close with. Didn't want to make this too long because I'm already rambling, I'll probably make another post about the measures I took to avoid pmo and I think worked.

    N/B
    I thought I'd make this brief post because there are a limited number of posts with successful PIED cases. Also, there are a lot of people who report not being healed past 90 days. These cases in particular made me anticipate long recovery times and I was a bit hesitant to inittiate sexual contact until it happened by chance today. So it is possibly people. Feel free to ask questions. I my answer them then copy paste into a new post with the steps I took.
     
  2. jimmyanderson

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    Is there any way to not have the irritating dreams or to counter irritation due to them? I have dreams in which I relapse only to wake up and find out that I actually haven't. That irritation lingers in my head for a long time. How did you manage that?
     
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  3. thikk

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    Unfortunately I didn't have a way to stop them. My mentality was to avoid what I could and grind out the parts I couldn't. Initially I enjoyed the dreams, but later on I got 2 in a row and it was so vivid and I felt like I had relapsed and my mood was messed up the entire day. However, when it comes to thoughts I used to count to 10 in my head while visualising the numbers until the thoughts faded. It was difficult at first but after some time i was able to ignore unwanted thoughts without using the system.
     
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  4. jimmyanderson

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    Thanks, will try this :emoji_ok_hand:
     
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  5. AnthonyyVibess

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    Amazing ! I’m glad you’re back to real intimacy, it makes you realize how much more worth-it it is over p and m ! I wish you many more real intimate moments and success in them
     
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  6. thikk

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    I agree. This also means a lot to me especially because pmo almost screwed up my entire life. I am happy I can start afresh without the anxieties of sexual performance affecting life in general.
     
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    Ikr ! That performance anxiety from watching distorted encounters of intimacy was something i thought i was going to struggle with. I think that’s something that should be talked abt jus as much as defeating porn bc a lot of us question if sex will be possible and have anxiety before we even start kissing the partner. Thankfully my gf is really loving. Cheers to you again for conquering !!
     
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  8. Nutella

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    Posts like this give me hope. I want my PIED gone. For good.
     
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    Precisely why I made the post, glad it gave you some hope. I personally felt scared to initiate sexual contact based on the large number of negative stories I have seen of pied taking ages to heal. I'm not saying very case will be like mine but we definitely need to be honest with our journeys and things will get better sooner rather than later. Stay strong mate!
     
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