The rules I set for my challenge: No Porn, No Masturbation, No Orgasm except with real live flesh and blood non-pixelated woman. Which happened the other night and it was amazing. I have not felt like that in decades. And the boys still feel all heavy like they are ready for more. Mr. Peanut was cooperative, surprisingly so, as there had been issues in past.
Still get urges and cravings. But sex with a real live woman put all that into perspective. Way more fun than being hunched over a computer screen with fake garbage. Had another date last night and another success with a cooperative Mr. Peanut. Fantastic! Will see her again on the tenth, then she is leaving for a contract in another city. This is a fun bit of knocking boots for her but I am fine with that as it is for me as well. She is a traveler and takes 13 week work contracts. When she's gone with I be tempted to backslide? Of Course! But knowing so in advance allows me to prepare myself for that.
Still having some chaser effect. Crazy weird erotic dream last night woke up thinking "What the hell...?" HA\d a pretty strong urge to FAP to some porn this morning so I went and rode my bike for an hour and a half. Kind of hard to fap to porn while riding a bike!
Wicked hard week at the Hospital. Loads of stress. Stress management is key for me. Otherwise I turn to unhealthy behaviors like PMO for release. Or drinking. Mediation has been helpful, as has increased exercise load. Crazy, but a Nurse Manager the other night was all super flirty with me. She said there was something different about me. Did I cut my hair (I wear a surgical cap at all times in the hospital since the COVID outbreak) and so forth. I didn't tell her I haven't Masturbated in a month and my boys are full as hell. Not sure she would have appreciated that.
Date last night was great. Had a little dinner, went home for a little wine and took turns massaging each other which led to fun. Mr Peanut performed admirably and things went great. Fantastic to connect with a real live Woman.
60th birthday, Bicycled my age in miles. Now tired and with a sore butt. Can't believe it's been over 40 days
Well so much for that. Fapped to a picture the gal I have been sleeping with sent me. Reset. And a reminder, Chaser effect is for real
Alright, Alright feeling pretty good. Getting set to lift some weights. Tried the Wim Hof breathing thing this morning, but I somehow managed to screw it up. How do you screw up breathing? Well Wim says to do 3-4 sets of 30-40 breaths but I got confused and did 4 sets of ten breaths. will try it again tomorrow, but I just had to laugh a little at myself. No Fapping, Cold Showers, Wim Hof Breathing. Increasing exercise. Up next: reducing Alcohol consumption. What is happenning to me?
Feeling pretty dang good. Nice morning wood this am. Work has chilled out significantly so stress levels are a lot lower. Been checking out this Scandinavian Bob guy at Project Stronger Self and he has some really great ideas. I have adopted a few. I like the idea of making a to do list at night for the next day. This has made me more productive and keeps me from moping about aimlessly. I am reading Wim Hof's book "The Wim Hof Method" and it has some crazy cool stuff in it.
Getting morning wood fairly consistently at this point. Sometimes it is woodier than others, but just about every morning there it is. Nice! I have not had morning wood in years so this is progress! Also, I'm down to 190 pounds. That used to be a struggle, but it just seems to be happening on its own! I think there really is something to this nofap deal.
Crazy thing now happening...when I brush my teeth with an Electric Toothbrush I get wood...WTF? Doing the Wim Hof thing for a few weeks now. Will see where that leads
Doing Wim Hof method every day now for close to a month. Breathing exercise, cold exposure, meditation. Medication practice now for about 75 days 10 minute daily sessions. Using an free app called Medito (android) has been a help. Other than morning wood, I don't feel all that different. But, that's cool
Well, shit. Relapse. Met a nice gal, had a couple drinks, made out in the car like teenagers. No Sex though. went home, horny as hell, ended up masturbating to porn. Did so once a day for the next couple of days. Now on day 4 of return to NoFap. I refuse to beat myself up over this. Yeah, I could of held off. Yeah, I AM stronger than this. And yes, I will do better.
