I don't know how to start this other than by saying these 90 days have been the most difficult, rewarding, most amazing 90 days of my life. I proved to myself that I am capable of overcoming this addiction after 12 years of being addicted to PMO. 12 years of shame, lack of self confidence, emotional flatline, feeling of despair, and guilt. Anyone who thinks they can't or who thinks they are beyond repair, I am living proof that it is possible and worth it.
What got me through was so simple: A change in environment. For medical school, I had to move away from my parent's house to an apartment near campus where I lived alone. However, even though I was alone, there was no connection between that apartment room and my PMOing habit because I had never done it there before. In other words, there are no triggers in my apartment room. However, when I come back to my parents house, I get such a strong urge to PMO because I have a history of PMOing in my parent's house. Its so strange how our brains work!
That was by far the most important factor that got me through but other things that helped me was going to the gym, cold showers, and rewarding myself with other pleasures like good, healthy food and going outside.
Finally, the benefits of NoFap are absolutely incredible. I can look a girl in the eye now without feeling shame. The greatest improvement came to my self-confidence and self-esteem. I lead Friday prayers, I speak my mind more freely at conference meetings and public speaking events. I am no longer afraid to say what I think. Additionally, I am Muslim and I no longer feel like I am a hypocrite when it comes to my faith. I have become more spiritual and feel emotions more strongly. I rediscovered my love for nature and the beautiful yet simple things in life like good food, sunshine, and good company. There's less brain fog and my grades have improved in med school. My time in the gym has also paid off
My 6 pack is starting to show, I am much more toned and just generally feel more masculine. Last but not least, I don't want to brag but girls have noticed and seem much more comfortable talking to me and I can tell are attracted to me.
And there you have it. I cannot thank this platform enough for helping me through this journey. I pray that I stay strong because my journey is far from over and I pray that all of you experience similar success and even more success than I've experienced. Stay strong brothers and sisters!! Salaam and peace to all!
