90 DAYS REPORT !! I REACHED IT AGAIN !!!!!

THIS IS THE TEXT THAT I POSTED ON REDDIT, DECIDED TO COPY IT AND SHARE IT HERE TOO.



A MILESTONE !!!! once again, i made it to 90 days. Alright, today was one of the worst days in my life, but nevertheless, today i reach 90 days and i decided to not wait till tomorrow to write a report so here it is:

Achievements/ Improvements/ Benefits: Psychological/ Mental:

1. Better self control, better ability to control my thoughts and be self reserved.
   
   
2. No more self blame, guilty feelings, and depression after a relapse and because of relapses.
   
   
3. More confidence in myself, better conversations with people, especially with women, feeling more free to talk my thoughts, being more fluent when i speak, but not always.
   
   
4. No longer lusting after women, no longer looking at them when they pass behind me, no dirty thoughts about them.
   
   
5. No panick attacks, paranoya, sudden fear, or feelings that you are being constantly watched, no more uncontrollable instant laughs with no reason.
   
   
6. Feeling healthier and cleaner, more stable, feeling glad to be alive, i'm not despising myself as i did before.
   
   
7. More balanced mind, more good thoughts, and stronger will.
   

Physical benefits :

1. More energy, i'm not so easy to be tired, have a little more physical strenght and stamina.
   
   
2. A little hair regrowth, i will explain this a little more, because its kinda relative: On the right side of my forehead, where my receding hairline began firstly, now i see tiny color hairs springing up, they are noticeable from distance of maybe 3 feet. They are not thick, and they are not so much in number, but enough to be seen, when i look in the mirror, and they were not there 3 months ago, or even little earlier. And there are many little white/blonde hairs there too, where my hairline used to be back 4 years ago, i dont know if these will turn black and grow longer. But on the left side my hairline is receding more, and i have a patch of hair that is getting visibly thinner, i dont know whats up with that, i usually used to have receding or thinning only after i fapped, its kinda strange. But my father got bald around 30, so its possible its just a natural genetical effect.
   
   
3. No penis or testicle retraction, now they hang down freely.
   
   
4. No loss of important testosterone and no wasting of time and energy.
   
   
5. Better skin. I also had some patch of skin on my penis that was slightly redder than the normal, it appeared after i fapped the last time, its gone now, my skin is down there is normal again.
   
   
6. A little deeper voice, more power in my voice.
   
   
7. No ankle sprains - i used to get these in the days after i fapped sometimes.
   
   
8. Better overall health,
   
   
9. Can look people in the eyes, dont have shyness, and dont have that nerve popping around my eyes, when im about to look a girl in her eyes (i dont know if you had this)
   
   
10. I got more sensitive towards some things, that i wouldnt normally consider or even think about, started to appreciate some things more.
    
    
11. Not exactly sure about rebooted brain, but its kind of like that, i am no longer craving for these things, i can push them off easily, i feel that i dont need PMO anymore, which is great ...
    
    
12. A little better memory and better learning abilities...
    

Other postive, or negative things:

1. Girls look at me more, there was even one girl 2 days ago that looked at me very provocatively, i thought i knew her, but i didnt, she was unfamilliar to me, but she looked me for like 5 6 seconds and i looked in her eyes too, and smiled and she smiled too and she was like saying: Aah, so you are that guy, huh ? She was pretty. (didnt feel big feelings toward her, just saying that she made an eye contact and looked at me with interest.)
   
   
2. Having frequent wet dreams - this is negative. Its like in 17 days i had 4 wet dreams, but this is the sixth day since i haven't had any. So i hope they go away or at least become less frequent.
   
   
3. I am feeling more capable to cope with different things, and help other people that are in the position where i have been, and i have more developed empathy or sense of compassion and understanding what the others are going through. I feel like i can give good advices to those that ask me for such.
   
   
4. Having a little brain fog, but i dont know if its due to nofap, because it could be due to other things as well, which are independant of fapping. Sometimes feeling little confused, dont knowing what exactly to do, feeling slack, unproductive, not being able to produce strong thoughts, or constant thinking, and things of that nature, not being able to stay concentrated or focused for long periods of time, getting easily distracted ... But this is only sometimes, not all the time, so i dont know if it counts for brain fog.
   

So this is it by now, guys, thank you for supporting me, and being in this community, i learned a lot of new things being a member here. If you have any questions, i will watch and check up what happens with this thread and try to answer as much as i can and as good as i can. May God bless you to reach huge mental strenght and have steel will and be able to withstand temptations and continue in your streak and never relapse. Stay vigilant and careful, and form strategies to cope with this. I wish you success.

 

@Phyrrhus Thank you, reading your reply made me feel good and glad that it helped someone and inspired him for going forth and ahead.
@Masquerade Thank you ! Yes, we really have long distances to reach and now i am more motivated to reach them ;D

 

I also forgot to mention about one more thing: I don't have frequent urination no more, i had it probably during the first 10-15 days after the relapse.

 

Thank you guys, i really appreciate your congratulations, i feel like the nofap journey is definitely easier now. @programer the sentences with capitol letters are very very encouraging, thank you ! ;D I wish success to all of you ! ;D