90 days retreat

I am in a challenging situation in life. Today I am making a vow. I have experience in doing this and know the power it has if it comes from within and is kept and felt from within to be attainable.

I am going into a 90 day retreat. I will not do PMO for 90 days. I will write at least every other day journal like. I know my weak point is the 60 day. If I hit it I allow myself m and o to release the pressure between 45-60 days but will not fall and drown again in porn and the addiction pattern.

I am getting up at 3 am each day or earlier. I dedicate my time to work and meditation and exercise and stay away from all else so I can work focused and concentrated.

I go to bed early. I do my excercise daily and I commit to this routine. I did it in the past and I know I can do it and that enormous power is in it enabling me to emerge from the difficulties and challenges.

I would be more than happy if on the way I can connect with other serious people who can hold longer streakes and to help each other and benefitting each other and forming new good relations.

 

I just completed a alomost 30 day challenge. I used to have 60 days each time which I lost as I sank into edging which is a much harder addiction to get away from. I then had a hard time to even get past 10 days. But I mastered and got to close to 30. I feel I can control the edging detour I took now and can continue on the 60 route and if I allow myself m and o one time around day 45-60 then I can also break the 60 day Wall I usually collapsed into porn. I strongly feel I don’t need the porn anymore and don’t want it anymore. It’s different then before when it was a real struggle to stay away from it. Now it’s a level where I want to break the pattern. There was enough experience realizations and mainly maturing inside the subject that I strongly feel I can take this on.

 

4/90 I feel good about the decision I made. Had a very productive day.