90 days without PM starts today.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by hiroshima, Dec 21, 2018.

  1. hiroshima

    hiroshima Fapstronaut

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    Hi, everyone. Haven't been here for a while. Not sure if i'm posting in the right thread.
    I really need to start my reboot, cause the situation is out of control.
    I did a 90 days without PMO in the past and everything seemed OK, but I slowly get sucked back into my old patterns/habits. I spend almost 2 hours almost every day M-ing to, well, not exactly P, but pictures. Same thing, I guess. I had a depression problems in the past months/years. I went to see a doctor and it helped. I started running, meditating, going hiking regularly. I felt much better. Like a normal human being. Now I feel being dragged back into depression. And my PMO addiction is one of the symptoms. So, as a first step of my fight with depression I want to start my 90 days reboot.
    This time a "no PM" mode, I think it should be enough. If it's not, I will try to adapt and will change to the hard mode.

    So, 90 days without P and M starts today! Wish me luck, guys!
    (and I really hope this time it will be more than just 90 days without P)
     
  2. Uncomfortably Numb

    Uncomfortably Numb Fapstronaut

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    Good luck but why 90 days?
    I always think this suggests PMO at the end of 90 days.
    Why not aim for a lifetime free from PMO?
     
  3. hiroshima

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    Well, I definitely aim for a lifetime without P. Just need to start somewhere. I have seen already that simply a 90-days reboot is not a solution for me, so...
    I guess these 90 days is also a time to think what to do next. I have purchased a book "Your brain on porn". Will read it and think about my next step, while on my 90 days reboot.
     
  4. seekingawayout

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    good luck bro make it a day by day target
    so at the end of the day u wiil feel achieved
    and remember it's ur choice so live up to it
     
  5. Uncomfortably Numb

    Uncomfortably Numb Fapstronaut

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    That is an excellent book... continued good luck
     
  6. hiroshima

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    Just a little update. It's been 95 days without PM (and now about two month without O as well since I broke up with my GF, not related to the challenge)
    I'm not going to stop here. I've read the book "Your Brain On Porn". It helped a lot.
    Well, I had some urges, especially right before my day 90. I don't feel any changes in my mood. I have something like a mild depression now and I'm seeing a psychiatrist.
    I do feel lots of sexual energy, though. Sometimes don't know how to handle it. I try not have sexual fantasies or anything like that. But it is difficult at times. For example yesterday I saw a movie with a couple of erotic scenes (not an erotic movie, it was "Lost Highway") and the levels of the sexual energy are just too high. Since I don't have a girlfriend I cannot say that all that makes me feel great.
    Sometimes I think that it's going to be too hard to wait for the right girl with all that amount of sexual tension. And I don't want to be so horny all the time. That can make me want to find someone just for sex and I don't want to do that as well. I just want to find a way to handle all this sexual energy and then go on with my life.
     

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