90 Days Without Porn

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Deleted Account, Aug 3, 2021.

  1. At 30 days I was suicidal. At 60 days I was confused. At 90 days this new way of life is starting to feel normal. I am beginning to entertain the idea of life without masturbation, but for the moment that remains a crutch of mine.

    My social life is not what I want and my dating life is non-existent. These are the things I aim to change. I am unhappy when my life is not well integrated with the lives of others. I suffered from a needy desperation for love and affection. I used porn as medicine. But porn is a poison. Especially in the quantities I was consuming. It motivated dishonesty and narcissism. While I am free from porn, I am not yet free of the underlying mental condition that motivated me to turn to porn in the first place. But I am gaining traction in that direction.

    I am developing a new identity founded on self-reliance, dignity, and self-respect. While this founding is not complete and the development of this new identity is ongoing, I believe the corner stone is in place. This is the first and last time I will have 90 days without pornography since I discovered its existence. There is no going back. I am finally becoming the man I want. The man I've always known I am. The man that knows what he wants and gets after it. The man that stands up for himself and fights for his own well being. The man that is truly free.
     
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  2. EpsilonDelta

    EpsilonDelta Fapstronaut

    Nice. Good to see that you intend to deal with the underlying causes of your previous bad habits, and change your life in a positive direction. Good luck!
     
  3. Beekind

    Beekind Fapstronaut

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    Keep going mate.
    This is the longest journey , the journey to understand yourself.
    Know yourself and you will win every battle.
     
  4. Well done bro! From a fellow follower of the Buddhist path.
     
  5. popmex

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    Good job bro. Stay strong! Good luck with the rest of your journey.
     
  6. TREV0RXX

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    Good job keep it up
     
  7. Spiritual Redemption

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    Well done brother!

    Going past 90 days is no mean feat. I really enjoyed reading your post and seeing your perspective. It took me years and 2 trips to rehab to realise that porn wasn't the problem. Take away the porn, and I'm left with an entire decaying underbelly that I've neglected for years; which I now have to face and clean out. This is a lifelong journey, but with the right perception, I believe it is a very exciting undertaking. A journey of self-mastery, growth, and re-discovering the infinite possibility around us all the time. I don't get things right all the time, but I feel like I am improving and have a general bearing. Well done on all your progress, and I hope that you continue to grow, learn, and begin to manifest a beautiful life. God speed brother.
     
  8. Thanks bro! I’d kill to get the last ten years back. Make every moment count!
     
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  9. iamShinra

    iamShinra Fapstronaut

    It was the same for me my friend.
     
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  10. Scion90

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    Super happy for you brother. Keep it going. Sending love and grace your way
     
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  11. Intonator

    Intonator Fapstronaut

    Well done. Really nice for a newbie like me to see someone doing well.
     
  12. Its all about dedicating yourself to becoming the man you want to be. That and the hokey pokey.
     
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  13. Intonator

    Intonator Fapstronaut

    Hokey pokey is what landed me here in the first place. Ooooooohhhhhhhhhhh (you mean) the hokey cokey!
     
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  14. TimeToQuitNow

    TimeToQuitNow Fapstronaut

    Congrats! Hope you get your social and dating life in order soon
     
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