I don't know what to write. I just joined the forum which was in a book about quitting porn addiction. I am an exhib gay guy so I love to do camming, recording vids of myself while masturbating etc. And I love porn. All were ok until few months recently. I started to get very bored with porn and looked for more extreme things. Not just porn but random webcam chats, nasty stories. I don't want to go into details about the categories but it was a bit insane and sick. I am a gentle funny man in real life but the fantasies what turned me on while chatting about it were violent, and dark. This scared me a lot even though it turned me on but after the orgasm the guilt feeling was so strong. I started to feel I have 2 personalities. I didn't even think that this could be because of porn addiction. I still kind of hope that this is the real reason. So wish me strength and good luck Also I would like to chat with people who are going through the same. Hopefully it helps.