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Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Abetterbrain, Aug 30, 2017.

  1. Abetterbrain

    Abetterbrain Fapstronaut

    Hi all,

    I'm a 30 year old man who has finally come to terms with my PMO addiction and realise something needs to change. Growing up I was always pretty confident and loved socialising. As I hit my teens I began to watch porn on the net, spending more and more time searching the net. It became part of my daily routine and I thought nothing of it. As I got older I developed more and more unhealthy habits, like drinking too much and staying up late. As I got into my 20s I began to want to socialise less and found less pleasure in things and it is only now that I realise there could be a link. Now this has become social anxiety and I finally realise there could be a link. Now as an adult and thanks to the help of smartphones, I find the urge to wank so strong that I just lose it as its so accessible.

    If I fap late at night (which is when I always do it) I am unable to sleep so then I spend the next day feeling like double shit, anxious and miserable.

    The urge for sex has always been outweighed by the need to fap.

    I stumbled on NoFap ages ago and looked into it a little but was sceptical about it. Now thanks to TedTalks and other sites and videos explaining the impact on the brain I know how dangerous PMO can be. I recently did a 15 day streak almost by accident, was decorating the house and kept myself busy until one day I was like wow...its been 15 days, I was so proud of myself. I thought this was it and I would be free, but of course I relapsed.

    One thing that I experienced during this streak that made me realise maybe there is something to NoFap, was that I started to dream again. This may sound odd but hear me out. I've always been shit at sleeping and stopped dreaming years ago. But on the streak I had going I started getting deep restful sleep and have vivid amazing dreams. I'd wake up feeling so happy. I want that again. I want to know that I'm not fucking up my brain. I want the social confidence I used to have as a child. I want a better brain.
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  2. Septimus

    Septimus Fapstronaut

    Welcome! I'm glad you are here. Let me know if I can help.
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  3. Abetterbrain

    Abetterbrain Fapstronaut

    Thanks for the warm welcome.
  4. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and sometimes challenge you but not judge you.

    The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?

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