A cry for help.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Mri, Feb 4, 2019.

  1. Mri

    Mri Fapstronaut

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    I've been masturbating since almost 8 years now. I'm almost 20. Few weeks back I found an amazing friend, loved spending time with her, the period of time in which I was with her, about 20 days I did not even THINK about Porn and then she went away to another city and I was left alone again with only Remote-Friends and no real ones but I cherished each and every memory of the time when I was with her in my mind and reminded myself of the joy I felt after the long talks...visits...meals..bike rides...just hanging out in the park hand in hands..ohh I missed her and still do...after she went away 6 days more passed and I DONT KNOW WHY, I didn't even felt like doing it (that rush of pleasure wasn't there, at all) but I did it anyway and Relapsed. Since then I've relapsed like 10 times in a period of less than 10 or so days. I've tainted the memories of the best new year I ever had. I hate MYSELF FOR IT. I am A Fukingg mess. Help me please someone. I cannot even tell any of my friends becsuse no one is that close and I live in a country where talks like these are frowned upon..I dunno why but it is how it .. and this is killing me man!
     
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  2. Dudes_manrod

    Dudes_manrod Fapstronaut

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    Hello friend

    Thank you for reaching out to us instead of keeping all these thoughts just bouncing around in your head!

    If i wasnt at work i would respond more thoroughly but let me at least say this:
    Even if you fapped 10 times in ONE day, nothing you do now can take away the beautiful time you had with that young lady, OR disqualify you from experiencing something like that again in your life.

    That was you who got to spend that time with her, and this is the same you now wanting to change your habits to have somethint precious like that again.

    Cherish those memories, and work your way through this stumble so you can make new ones.

    Take care!
     
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  3. Bluespace123

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    Don't be so hard on yourself, I still struggle with self criticism alot, but I've learned that judging yourself doesn't help and can actually exasperate the problem. Your obviously here being honest and open about your pmo so you do want to quit, but a big problem of quitting pmo is that it isn't a matter of will power, if it was we would have all quit by now because we all have come here for that reason.

    So it's not as easy as just telling yourself to stop and then getting mad at yourself if you don't. Honestly I dont think anybody can recover that way. Getting rid of pmo is getting rid of a strong habit depending upon how long and frequently you have used it. So your going to make mistakes, and alot, so when you do try and be more compassionate towards yourself. I would really recommend meditation.
     
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  4. Mri

    Mri Fapstronaut

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    I'll try. Thanks for taking your time out and helping me. I'll try and not give up! Take care u too sir!!
     
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  5. Mri

    Mri Fapstronaut

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    Good advice.. I overthink alot and this meditation might just be the keystone habit that'll get me out of this shitstorm i'm in.
    Thankyou again.. I'll try to not judge myself so harshly.
     
  6. bb@793

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    Hello. Please don't be hard on yourself. What your trying to leave I.e pmo is a difficult task indeed.try this app safesurfer and spin browser.i just completed my 7 day abstinence from pmo. Feels awesome.but this time make up your mind.choose life over porn.
     
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  7. Mri

    Mri Fapstronaut

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    Thankyou for taking your time out and helping me :)
    Yes I m gonna give these apps a try. Thanks again man!
     

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