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Better version of myself

Better version of myself

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So, No need for introduction and that all i'm done with all the things going on.
I'M A FIGHTER, I'M A NINJA , I'M A DAMNED SAMURAI !
Rules are simple :- share what you have learned, and also everyday give your best shot, of course, follow NOFAP .
RESISTANCE DAYS !!

RESISTANCE Day 1 :-(8 Oct 2020)
I did YouTube whole day but not in unproductive manner. I had a dreamt of being a streamer so to set everything up and the formalities I did do YT the whole day but its all done . And from tomorrow I will be starting to stick up TO my schedule as much as I can and from 10th Oct I will be starting the hardcore GRIND !!! and journaling =))
 
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So to be very honest, i have been funking around my life alot and fapping added to my distress I WANTED to achieve many things in 2020 but i cant.
But from now, today is my day after reading the journal of @Fighter_4_life I understood how a journal is now supposed meant to be written.
Also, i came across a term "Maladaptive daydreaming ' when i searched it up i found out that most of my life i was daydreaming , I was into CHRONIC DAYDREAMING, sometimes i even spent WHOLE day in it.

But, from now on as inspired by her :)
I would also divide my day into
Target :-
SPRITUAL
Academics
Reading
Exercising
Journaling.

That is what basically im gonna do, and from a book named " MANAGING ONESELF " i learned that write goals, that what you wanna become in the next 18 months and work on it.

-> Spiritual - meditation, affirmation, reading holy books and also praying god
-> Academics - studying minimum 3 hours a day
-> Reading - whatever, i read on any day i should apply in my life immediately and
-> Exercising - exercising for atleast an hour
also,
I have to keep my back straight and maintain a great posture
At last i know i HAVE TO GRIND TO Get it and the GRIND beguns !!
( PS - NO YOUTUBE OR INSTA / SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORM ALLOWED :) , and no daydreaming, just do the work )
Also would make a rule to sleep by 10 pm =)
 
Better version of myself said:
So to be very honest, i have been funking around my life alot and fapping added to my distress I WANTED to achieve many things in 2020 but i cant.
But from now, today is my day after reading the journal of @Fighter_4_life I understood how a journal is now supposed meant to be written.
Also, i came across a term "Maladaptive daydreaming ' when i searched it up i found out that most of my life i was daydreaming , I was into CHRONIC DAYDREAMING, sometimes i even spent WHOLE day in it.

But, from now on as inspired by her :)
I would also divide my day into
Target :-
SPRITUAL
Academics
Reading
Exercising
Journaling.

That is what basically im gonna do, and from a book named " MANAGING ONESELF " i learned that write goals, that what you wanna become in the next 18 months and work on it.

-> Spiritual - meditation, affirmation, reading holy books and also praying god
-> Academics - studying minimum 3 hours a day
-> Reading - whatever, i read on any day i should apply in my life immediately and
-> Exercising - exercising for atleast an hour
also,
I have to keep my back straight and maintain a great posture
At last i know i HAVE TO GRIND TO Get it and the GRIND beguns !!
( PS - NO YOUTUBE OR INSTA / SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORM ALLOWED :) , and no daydreaming, just do the work )
Also would make a rule to sleep by 10 pm =)
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Wish you all the good luck in your journey..
I am sure if you practice all the things you listed with consistency your life will change and it will change for the better..
Just don't slack and push yourself to complete all your routines on time
One things at a time
Initially it will be difficult but with time you will see the results..
Also you mentioned distress..
Your routine power ups are going to minimize your distress but until you fix up the core issue that is causing you distress..
Things will stay the same..
So fix the core issue and then proceed to play with power ups..
Hopefully you will be better...
Sending good wishes
And also thanks for good words you mentioned about me on your journal
 
Guyss, I was having the worst days in my life right now. All the bad dreams of my life merged and now, it ain't just p**n or YouTube. My previous addiction of games and chronic day dreaming came back altogether. I m just fussed up. Cause now, I just feel life like a weight. It's it's just the worst life I can ever imagine
:( , And most important thing is that the ninja and the learner inside me are dying. They are fed up and the addict inside me is getting stronger.
Now, I 8n the cross roads of my life. I and Ninja the learner and the fighter inside me have just last try. It's just that I have two choices :-
A) EITHER I REMAIN A ADDICT MY WHOLE LIFE AND BLAME OTHERS.
B) OR I TRY MY A** OFF AND JUST PULL IN ALL MY POWER ALL THE RESOURCE FOR THIS TRY TO MAKE MY LIFE BEST.

And, you know what I choose the latter one. I am just deleting all social media. And I created a schedule for myself lastly, without such social media I cannot listen to audio books. So I will just be providing you the summary of the books that I read .
Now, that is what I'm going to do I have conquered chronic daydreaming earlier, BUT THIS TIME ENEMIES ARE STRONGER AND BIGGER THAN EVER!!!!

I am just gonna do this anyway, I AM GONNA BE AT MY PEAK PERFORMANCE BEFORE THIS YEAR ENDS! - The fighters inside me

< NO RESISTANCE DAYS, cause just on the name of the. I procrastin8 and alsoz let's start the journey >

" FALL SEVEN TIMES , STAND UP EIGHT " -'Japanese proverb

, Started on 12 Oct 2020
 
RULES :-
  • No social media
  • Meditate
  • Follow schedule
  • Workout
  • Read books
  • No comparison ( like marks etc etc)
  • Study ≥3 hours
  • FOLLOW NOFAP
  • Journal
  • Listen to podcasts
  • SMILE
  • Follow Ayurvedic routine
  • Maintain Posture
AND THE MAIN TASK IS "BEING MYSELF "
 
DAY 1 :-
So, today I didn't woke up at the time I decided but yesterday I slept earlier than ever before. That's a good sign for me.
Just two days before I got a cut in my tip toe, but still I tried to work out and it's hurted like anything
Now, but for me the good sign was that I resisted any overthinking except 10 mins in this day and even I didn't watch a single YouTube video. Also, as I want to be a gamer I GRINDED hard today. And now it's around 7 pm . I'm going to study till 9 pm and then I would meditate.
Today's I found a cure to my laziness. So as I was following a thing which came to my mind, it just striked inside me. As the place where I live has around 2k cases of corona so, I literally didn't saw the world for around 8-9 months ( I still wish if I started to improve at that time :( ) but still better late than never.
In ayurveda, you will find a trick known as "USHAPAAN" it is basically that the moment you wake up you have to drink at least 1 L of water, when I tried some days back yeah ( i felt I cannot drink so I drank around 5 glasses of water ). And boy oh boy what I felt what I felt was my digestive system literally got cleansed. Also, by god's grace I do have a compound, in which sun rays directly fall, so , I take sunbath while eating a fruit preferrably Apple and my energy levels after doing this both were touching sky I felt energy in every cell of my body.
Talking about today I did nothing much but these all things and did start to learn Spanish from Duolingo , hope I can workout Tom. :)
 
DAY 2 :-
Again the same story , woke up late but I meditated and also I drank nearly 800 ml of water. Then, till 1:15 pm I did some good / productive stuff ( learning Spanish from Duolingo , starting to code thanks to @Renaissance Man ) Then, started the worst period the period of procrastination after it I didn't had that much work mostly I completed, and completely clueless. The urges were sky high , of both ( Fapping and YouTube ) then, it came for overthinking . But boy oh boy really even with plethora of urges. I still remember the words my ninja spoke " This is your last shot brader, our last chance " and due to fapping my marks decrease like hell , so on 3 rd Oct 2020 I still remember the worst marks of my life ( 57/80 ). For the motivation reason , when I saw it the blood inside me started to boil. So I didn't got that much urge. And talking about, the rest I didn't are at night and now it's 8:30 after writing this I will be listening affirmations then I gotta sleep.
Talking about yesterday I didn't studied :(

A VOTE OF SORRY TO @Renaissance Man and @aricking,
I'm really really ashamed to say but, I think there is no point in hiding, the more I will hide the more I will overthink and the more I will be negative. Firstly and foremostly I would ask a bit of forgiveness from @Renaissance Man and @aricking , so what happened to me was yesterday while scrolling the forum's ( ironically, nothing much to do I STARTED getting addicted to Nofap ) so, I saw how the genius mind of @aricking was after reading his journal I felt somewhat jealous just because he has worked so hard and I procrastinated , ( the fapper me was jealous not the new me ) but then new me took control and also, with renaissance man cause of his coding skills. But afterwards I realise that how hard they both have worked to get into what they are. And the new me won't tolerate any negative rays emitted also, while procrastinating the fapper me fryer to poke inside but cant.
So my new me is really ashamed and ask for forgiveness to both of them . As if I keep this talk inside the fapper me would inculcate a negative me !
Sorry for that :(

Made a schedule and now I'm gonna follow it!!!

So, also I would say that I'm gonna workout no matter what happens to the cut, I feel just a small cut can't stop me from working out. For surely I'm gonna learn new words and start the learning process !!!!

Thanks for reading :) :)
Hope you have great day / night ahead
 
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