Marka
Fapstronaut
Hello fapstronauts,
I finally decided to post here! What primarily attracted me to NoFap is this post I've seen somewhere, regarding a man who managed to get by 6 months without masturbation:
"... I think it was so mainly because I felt so present and grounded like a 500 year old tree. Everything I did was "deeper" and I felt generally very capable of accomplishing anything that came to my mind..."
Anyway, I am 25 years old, I live in Europe and for the last few years I dance a social dance, which I really feel in love with and find everyday new and new ways to progress in it. However, it feels to me as if all other parts of my life are filled with lack of success, that I am a total failure (career choice, no friends, no sex, going from one unrequited crush to another). This feeling of failure also infests my dancing experience.
The problem that I am dealing the most when it comes to masturbation and relapses is, that I simply stop believing that anything will change, and then I make a conscious decision to start masturbating again, even if I regret it later.
One of my greatest worries right now is this hatred that I have started feeling towards social dancing -- this worry has also brought me here. The dance that I indulge in includes dancing with females of all ages in close embrace, cheek to cheek; it is based on connection (as well as perfection in the dance technique), and even though I don't really have friends there, I have a lot of friends of both genders I love to meet, hug and kiss (I am straight, by the way). But this very same intimacy also fuels my sexual frustration -- how many times would I rather have sex with the woman I am currently dancing with!!! But doing so seems like a dream from another universe, and I am also afraid to share this thought with anyone else.
I tried visiting a prostitute a couple of times, because I just couldn't stand the pressure anymore. It was ok, she "cared about me" and I felt good for the first three times or so, but then not anymore (since I knew that it is fake, and besides I was afraid about STDs). I've also read a lot of stuff about dating, I've been to the seminars and workshops about seduction, dating markets, body language and such... bla bla
However, putting this knowledge into practice is where I lack the most. Currently I still live with my parents, but I have a job and am looking for an apartment (to be honest, I am unconsciously constantly delaying moving from home). I am going to psychotherapy regarding what I wrote above, but I think I'll also need help from forums as yours to get somewhere better in life.
Have a good day, and then also a good night!
I finally decided to post here! What primarily attracted me to NoFap is this post I've seen somewhere, regarding a man who managed to get by 6 months without masturbation:
"... I think it was so mainly because I felt so present and grounded like a 500 year old tree. Everything I did was "deeper" and I felt generally very capable of accomplishing anything that came to my mind..."
Anyway, I am 25 years old, I live in Europe and for the last few years I dance a social dance, which I really feel in love with and find everyday new and new ways to progress in it. However, it feels to me as if all other parts of my life are filled with lack of success, that I am a total failure (career choice, no friends, no sex, going from one unrequited crush to another). This feeling of failure also infests my dancing experience.
The problem that I am dealing the most when it comes to masturbation and relapses is, that I simply stop believing that anything will change, and then I make a conscious decision to start masturbating again, even if I regret it later.
One of my greatest worries right now is this hatred that I have started feeling towards social dancing -- this worry has also brought me here. The dance that I indulge in includes dancing with females of all ages in close embrace, cheek to cheek; it is based on connection (as well as perfection in the dance technique), and even though I don't really have friends there, I have a lot of friends of both genders I love to meet, hug and kiss (I am straight, by the way). But this very same intimacy also fuels my sexual frustration -- how many times would I rather have sex with the woman I am currently dancing with!!! But doing so seems like a dream from another universe, and I am also afraid to share this thought with anyone else.
I tried visiting a prostitute a couple of times, because I just couldn't stand the pressure anymore. It was ok, she "cared about me" and I felt good for the first three times or so, but then not anymore (since I knew that it is fake, and besides I was afraid about STDs). I've also read a lot of stuff about dating, I've been to the seminars and workshops about seduction, dating markets, body language and such... bla bla
However, putting this knowledge into practice is where I lack the most. Currently I still live with my parents, but I have a job and am looking for an apartment (to be honest, I am unconsciously constantly delaying moving from home). I am going to psychotherapy regarding what I wrote above, but I think I'll also need help from forums as yours to get somewhere better in life.
Have a good day, and then also a good night!
