DAY 1 - PART 1 One day at a time. The roller coaster of emotions I am feeling is something I have never experienced before. It's enough to make me feel BEYOND CRAZY. I hear that journaling helps and I haven't done so in years. So here it goes. Today I feel weak, although I know I am strong. The number of things I have been through in life and pulled myself from a better person are countless. So, I know I can do this too. There are so many things to heal from, and so many things I need to work on myself that currently, it feels overwhelming. So I am reminding myself to take it "One Day At A Time" and "Easy Does It." This will not be a quick healing process. This experience was my bottom. The bottom I needed to hit in life to know that I can only control myself and my actions. The bottom that made me realize that I have played a part in every sad story of my life. Every struggle. Every confrontation. Every ill relationship. Every action I have made and Every Reaction. Reminding myself that the rollercoaster of emotions I am feeling are valid and fairly normal for the circumstances. Reminding myself that I need to work very hard to set boundaries in my life and be confident in those boundaries. Confident enough to say "No, I won't" I am committing myself to those boundaries that will include not participating in behaviors that feel uncomfortable to me. I will focus on taking care of myself first and foremost. Focus on loving myself first.