A good test of will

This past Friday I was alone for a good three hours. It was very temping to MO. It had been 1 1/2 weeks since I had had sex. It was easy to start building rationalizations in my head, but then I said, NO! I am in control here, besides, I know the O wouldn't be that good and then I would be miserable with disappointment and being a little depressed because of it. The really good news to all of this, I had no desire what-so-ever to look at P or PMO. I was only contemplating MO! So that is good. I really don't think I could go back to that nasty stuff, I feel so much better for not seeing it anymore, I really do. And very normal. I will say the past few weeks my sex drive seems down, but at the same time there has been a lot going on with my family. At any rate, I am very pleased and having a great day.