a little confused

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by cryptifly, Sep 4, 2015.

  1. cryptifly

    cryptifly Fapstronaut

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    So I'm having a weird reaction lately and I'm not entirely sure how to put into words so I'm just going to stream-of-consciousness it and see what happens. I woke up at around 2 am last night hating myself. Basically I feel intellectually impotent and angry that all the potential I have is squandered by this and the wait time required for a reboot. These feelings lead me to write this and wonder if I'm on the right path. By right path I mean this: I haven't watched porn in at least a month now. But every 5-6 days I MO to thoughts in my head and once a week for the past 2 weeks I've been sexually active with an old ex-girlfriend. Here's my question: Am I still healing with these behaviors? Do I just need to chill out in my head and let things happen as they do or do I need buckle down and just not MO period? I'm inclined to believe that I'm still healing even though I MO once in awhile, but I want some other opinions.
     
  2. Pureheart

    Pureheart Fapstronaut

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    There is no right answer, people here don´t know you, therefore they can´t decide for you. I recommend you further abstain from Porn and masturbation.
    Chances are you have other problems related or unrelated in your life if you don´t feel satisfied. Nofap is not an allhealing solution for every problem on the planet. Some of the people here for sure have their potential taken bei PMO but I don´t think everyone here is a severe case.

    At your point I suggest you just stop brooding over it and start taking action. Thinking is good but overthinking isn´t. Brooding over problems just make them more of a problem.
    Sounds stupid but is true nonetheless. Start to take actions now, to change the course of your future!
     
  3. 8BitsOfStuggling

    8BitsOfStuggling Fapstronaut

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    Like @Pureheart said, we do not know your entire situation. However, it is a common belief that if you are MO'ing while rebooting, it is harmful. I also believe that if you are having sex during the beginning of rebooting, it is harmful. Go 30-40 days without any stimulation. Then you can ease sex back in if you want. PMO isn't a joke, and it isn't something I am comfortable walking the close line with. But that is my choice. While you may still be healing with this behavior, and probably are, you could be healing significantly slower.
     
  4. cryptifly

    cryptifly Fapstronaut

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    Thank you. I know it sounds like I'm asking everyone to tell me what to do, but I mainly just want the to hear from experienced people on the effectiveness of healing with my behavior. Maybe a certain part of me still doesn't fully believe that PMO is less harmful than MO by itself. Who knows, it doesn't matter.
     
  5. cryptifly

    cryptifly Fapstronaut

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    Good advice, however, I'm not brooding. Brooding is the immersion into negative thinking that people choose to do. Waking up in the middle of the night scared because I'm trapped in a life I don't want due to brain fog getting in the way of any out I may have (and I have no concrete idea about why) is not a choice I make willingly and is beyond my control. Yes, yes, I know, make the choices to stop the brain fog. I get that. I'm doing that. At least I hope I am, which is why I'm checking in with all of you with this post.
     

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