Hello everyone! I joined this community last year on December because I was really depressed and I wanted to change something in my life. I was lonely, no girlfriend, a few friends, no social skills and a big addiction for PMO. I PMO'd like 1-2, sometimes even 3 times a day. Shortly, I was a mess! The first time I found this website, was on 26th December 2016 and I liked the concept and the honesty of all the users. Some of them were in an awful state, some managed to succeed in their way of self-improving. I decided that it's a good opportunity for me to do the same and to join this challenge. So from that date, I managed to do the No PMO challenge for almost 6 months. The main reason I did this was because I was suffering from PIED. I had a bad experience with my first girlfriend in 2014 and that's why I decided to end our relationship in 2015 because I felt to awkward. That was a difficult moment in my life, but I don't want to complain because I improved a lot of aspects in my life since then. On October 2015, I decided to give up smoking. I was smoking an average of 10 cigarettes per day and that led me to suicidal thoughts. I believed that this must be the first aspect in my life to be changed and it improved my psychical health a lot. I was also doing sport in the mean time ( running, krav maga, push ups etc.), but I wasn't fully committed and in short time, I gave up to this. In the beginning of 2016, I had a new girlfriend, but that relationship didn't last too long, it lasted like a week, because I still had some confidence issues and she decided to break up with me. I felt devastated and I cried for a few days because I felt like she is a keeper in my life, maybe that's why I was desperate and I couldn't control myself. Later that year, I started working as a programmer and I began to feel more confident. I didn't had problems with money, because I was paid pretty good for a starter in his professional life. But what's the point in having a great financial status when you don't have someone to spend the money with, someone with who should invest your money and time with? My depression was still there and I was lost again, this time with a bit of hope in my mind. I decided to go to the next step and join NoFap and since then, I saw a lot of improvements. As I told at the beginning of this post, I almost managed to do 180 days of No PMO challenge but I relapsed. Why I did this? On the end of March 2017, I started dating a girl I met on Tinder, a girl that was very pretty and very friendly. I liked her and we understood in many aspects, one of them was the fact that we were both in our final year of bachelor studies and we supported each other all the time. But with all the support, I felt under pressure. I didn't have free time in that period because of work and college and I also didn't have time to go with my girlfriend and I had that weakness moment when I started watching porn again and relapsed in the middle of June. And I started with my old routine again, 1-2 times a day of PMO. Me and my girlfriend managed to finish our bachelor degree by the end of July and we had more free time, each one of us. I decided that it's a great time now to go on vacation with her, because that I was my dream since was little, to discover the world with my loved one. Unfortunately, she decided to spend her time going to job interviews all the time and to study more, in order to improve herself. I completely understood her, because I was in the same situation. In the end she finally managed to start working in September, but she had a complicated job, because she had to be present there like most of the time and I still wanted to go places with her. She somehow rejected all my future ideas I had with her, even a simple evening out to a concert in the town. She told me that next day she needs to study for work, even though it was Sunday then. I lost my mind in that moment, because all my plans were ruined and she didn't care by the way she was reacting. I told her it's sad she chooses career over the important ones and we didn't talk till next evening when she texted me she wants to break up with me. I realised then she didn't care about me as she pretended to. I was still PMO'ing, but I started to go to the gym in August and now I am more committed than I was 2 years ago. Now, I have 8 days of no PMO and with the help of gym and some cardio exercises I want to stay positive and become a better person. I still need some social skills improvement, especially with girls I'm attracted to, and also a good diet that will help me physically and mentally. Thank you for reading this long post! I needed to share this story here in order to hear your opinions, advice and suggestions. My evolution journey still has a long way in front of me and I think it's better to share it with all of you guys out here, because you completely understand me. P.S.: sorry for my bad language!