A-Way-Of-Escape
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Hi. This will be the first confession I have ever made concerning my addiction of 5+ years.
I have tried to quit many times before. Sometimes, I succeeded at escaping temptation for a while, but like a dog to its vomit, I would return. Now, my porn and masterbation addiction threatens all my personal time, distracting me from healthy ambitions and depressing me. The urges are strong; I can no longer control them on my own. I feel as though nothing else can satisfy me, but the moment after, I feel awful, and the depression worsens. I need an escape. I need a new approach.
Like I mentioned previously, I have never told anyone the details of my addiction. A man's struggle with porn addiction seems expected, although not condoned, but I am a woman - a woman with a good family and a good upbringing. I told myself the lie that I, of all people, should have known better - should be stronger. Depression lead me to believe that I was simply ruined and that I no longer needed to fight the urges because a shattered vessel can't be used for good anyway. But this addiction, this depression - THIS PRISON - is not what I want. Please, I want to change, but I can't do it on my own.
Sincerely,
AWayOfEscape
"There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it." -1Corinthians 10:13
I have tried to quit many times before. Sometimes, I succeeded at escaping temptation for a while, but like a dog to its vomit, I would return. Now, my porn and masterbation addiction threatens all my personal time, distracting me from healthy ambitions and depressing me. The urges are strong; I can no longer control them on my own. I feel as though nothing else can satisfy me, but the moment after, I feel awful, and the depression worsens. I need an escape. I need a new approach.
Like I mentioned previously, I have never told anyone the details of my addiction. A man's struggle with porn addiction seems expected, although not condoned, but I am a woman - a woman with a good family and a good upbringing. I told myself the lie that I, of all people, should have known better - should be stronger. Depression lead me to believe that I was simply ruined and that I no longer needed to fight the urges because a shattered vessel can't be used for good anyway. But this addiction, this depression - THIS PRISON - is not what I want. Please, I want to change, but I can't do it on my own.
Sincerely,
AWayOfEscape
"There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it." -1Corinthians 10:13