Thedrummer
New Fapstronaut
Hello,
My name is Thedrummer and I am new to this website. I am here because I recognize now the realities of porn addictions. I recently watched a the documentary, "Addicted To Porn: Chasing The Cardboard Butterfly." This documentary helped me understand what porn addiction is all about. For a time, I gave porn up and began to go about masturbating without it. To my surprise it was even more enjoyable. The real reason I decided to finally give up porn was that I began seeing a change in porn and society and that led to seeing a change in myself. However, recently I have found myself watching porn again and every time I do it, I chastise myself for doing it but continue to view anyway. I had an incident where while I was without porn I was hospitalized for a period of time. Once I was healthy and released from doctors care I decided to simply view porn one time because I told myself it was okay to do and since then I've just reverted to my old habits. I know I can stop using it again. I am joining a community where I can hold myself accountable and begin truly rebooting myself. All I want to do is have a meaningful relationship with a women and love her. I want a healthy sex life where I don't fear about my performance with my partner. I need to achieve harmony with myself. I believe this is first step in the right direction.
My name is Thedrummer and I am new to this website. I am here because I recognize now the realities of porn addictions. I recently watched a the documentary, "Addicted To Porn: Chasing The Cardboard Butterfly." This documentary helped me understand what porn addiction is all about. For a time, I gave porn up and began to go about masturbating without it. To my surprise it was even more enjoyable. The real reason I decided to finally give up porn was that I began seeing a change in porn and society and that led to seeing a change in myself. However, recently I have found myself watching porn again and every time I do it, I chastise myself for doing it but continue to view anyway. I had an incident where while I was without porn I was hospitalized for a period of time. Once I was healthy and released from doctors care I decided to simply view porn one time because I told myself it was okay to do and since then I've just reverted to my old habits. I know I can stop using it again. I am joining a community where I can hold myself accountable and begin truly rebooting myself. All I want to do is have a meaningful relationship with a women and love her. I want a healthy sex life where I don't fear about my performance with my partner. I need to achieve harmony with myself. I believe this is first step in the right direction.