A new beginning

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Deleted Account, Sep 9, 2018.

  1. Hi everyone,

    I'm Axel, 21.
    I would like to share my "journey" with you. Sorry if my english is bad, I'm french.
    I wanted 2018 to be the year where I would start all my projects, and obviously stopping to fap was one of them.
    So I started on January 1st, and I was able to keep up abstaining 56 days. I also had an account on this site (Axlspath) but then I released, and I was disgust with myself, so I wasn't able to continue because I "saw" myself as if I wasn't able to to anything good.

    I stayed in this bad mood for 6 months (from March to now), but I was constantly trying to start NoFap again: Sometimes I could keep up during a week, sometimes two, sometimes I couldn't keep up at all.
    And then I tried to understand why I was like that, and I understood that if the only project I was trying to perform was No PMO, I wouldn't be able to do anything. During this year, I wasn't happy with many things : I was a student preparing a competitive exam which I knew I would fail because I hated my teachers (bad teachers), I had a girlfriend but it didn't work out between us because of the distance (and of course it was hard for us because we loved each other), and last but definitely not least, I wanted to get in a better shape but the fact that I was living in a small town, with no possibility of moving without a car (buses here are expensive and as a student I did not have much money) didn't allowed me to do it.

    So I spent the last two months working on my project. I dropped out of school, but I kept the goal of preparing my competitive exam, but now I can focus on my way of working on things.
    Also, I was able to find a job, so now I can go the gym and work out to get the better shape I've always wanted, I've legit been walking on my program for those two months.

    Eventually, seeing that I was really happy with how my life is going so far made me understand that now I'm ready to start again my no PMO journey, and for good.

    My goal is to stop Porn and Masturbation for good, but I'll start with the 90 day no PMO challenge, which means (if I understood it right) that I won't have sex for the next 90 days.

    I really feel like I'm on a new path. I started on Thursday, September 6th, so it's only been 3 days, but it only is the beginning of my journey.

    If you read it so far, I'd like to thank you for your attention. And as I said from the beginning, I'm sorry if my english is bad.
  2. Windex

    Windex Fapstronaut

    Welcome back and great work getting back on path! I know how defeating it feels to have a strong period of abstinence and then relapse. It can take a lot of work and determination to get back into the fight but the important thing is to not drop out and I'm glad you're back at it with us!
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