A New Journey

Hi there fellow Fabstronauts?

I'm new to NoFap and my very first inbox mail suggested that I introduce myself and share my objective here. I'd rather remain anonymous for now and be known as my favorite video game character, MegaMan. Keeping this anonymity will help me share my experience I guess... I'm a 31 yr old man and I have been suffering from erectile dysfunction for a while now, actually that's a lie... more than just a while. I have been masturbating to porn from a very young age. Porn has assisted me in achieving auto-orgasm for my entire life. Ever since I could remember I have never been able to get a full erection... I have always been semi-hard or could only maintain an erection for a few moments before becoming flaccid again. I thought it was normal actually, until I tried ED drugs and I had a raging erection that would last for a long time. It felt amazing. I figured my problem was physical and that I would need these pills forever. Until one day, my boyfriend at the time told me that I would get morning wood for long periods of time before waking up in the morning... every morning actually... without taking any ED drugs. He suggested that my problem was not physical, but psychological.

Even though I can't stay hard for long periods of time I would find myself masturbating and edging for hours. I have spend so much time looking at porn and masturbating that it drove me blind. So I tried to see if any other guys out there experienced the same thing and came across PIED/YBOP/NOFAP and just learned about rebooting. I want to reboot my brain and get natural hard erections. I realize that this may take a long time.... but I'm tired of not experiencing relationships at my full capacity and having performance anxiety... maybe porn is not the problem, but I won't know until I try.

So here I am... joining NoFap and ready to reboot. I have done the following to start my reboot:

- Delete all my porn bookmarks
- Delete my accounts on meeting sites
- Delete my Xtube account
- Delete my porn Tumblr account (Tumblr was my main source for porn)

And now I just finished deleting all the porn from my computer... I didn't even get a full erection from looking at them... this is a sign that I'm doing the right thing.

I don't care if no one reads this. It just feels good to let it out and to know that there is a community to support me should I reach out for help.

I'm ready to do this. One day at a time.

 

Thank you DBug. It all starts today! Love the portal image.