redemption7
Fapstronaut
Hey guys,
New fapstronaut, here. Made the account today and resigned myself to the last of masturbation (for some time) and porn (for good, I hope), as well. Tomorrow, no matter what answer I get to the questions I want to ask, is a new era.
But a cloud hangs over me as it has for some time. I have been indulging in limitless self-gratification and increasingly degenerate pornography for many years, now. I am in my mid-twenties now, right about the time your brain is supposed to stop developing. The things I have come to find arousing and what I gratify myself over are so troubling (not in a legal sense, for that I can be grateful) that I feel a splitting of my self-image over them, almost. They undermine my view of myself, my faith, and just as painfully, my relationship with the love of my life.
The questions are roughly interchangeable, really. Will these degenerate attractions and fantasies fade as the brain fog does? Will I be a normal, healthy man again with normal, healthy sexual desires?
Am I permanently fucked?
New fapstronaut, here. Made the account today and resigned myself to the last of masturbation (for some time) and porn (for good, I hope), as well. Tomorrow, no matter what answer I get to the questions I want to ask, is a new era.
But a cloud hangs over me as it has for some time. I have been indulging in limitless self-gratification and increasingly degenerate pornography for many years, now. I am in my mid-twenties now, right about the time your brain is supposed to stop developing. The things I have come to find arousing and what I gratify myself over are so troubling (not in a legal sense, for that I can be grateful) that I feel a splitting of my self-image over them, almost. They undermine my view of myself, my faith, and just as painfully, my relationship with the love of my life.
The questions are roughly interchangeable, really. Will these degenerate attractions and fantasies fade as the brain fog does? Will I be a normal, healthy man again with normal, healthy sexual desires?
Am I permanently fucked?