A pleasure to join the community but a heart breaking desperation inside...

Hey guys,

I am Eduard... I will go by ssj4goku1992 around here. I have been a pornography addict since I was 12 or 13. Already suffered from OCD by that time... I discovered that I was a porn addict at 19, in February 2012, when after I had sex first time with a girl and had immense erectile dysfunction and arousal issues I started to google things... Found yourbrainonporn and discovered what an addiction I had...

Fast forward 7 years. After tens, maybe 100 cycles of abstaining and rebooting then relapsing again... I find myself here. Last november, surprisingly, even with a few relapses I reached a crazy point that I never thought can be real. Arousal and erections in ANY interaction with women... Casual talking, walking around on the street etc... I lost this with more relapses... Since 26 December though I started to be porn free. At some point I started edging to heal my premature ejaculation and it worked. I had no issues with porn, no cravings, complete control.

2 weeks ago... I lost it due to a retarded reddit thread with naked women... Since then I try to get up... But fall back again... Out of sheer desperation, not knowing what to do... I decided to join the community and maybe get some help from you guys... That s my intro very shortly... I will start a journal in my age group...

Thank you anticipated for taking the time to care about me, a random stranger and his life... I wish all of you the best!

 

Thanks guys! I appreciate