A positive and negative

I've been feeling very depressed over the past few weeks due to my chronic and almost decade long case of PIED. This addiction has really taken it out of me in terms of mental health. I've also been bullied heavily thoughout my life and as a result suffer from a lot of body image preoccupied thoughts daily. My life hasn't been easy.

I've had basically not sex drive for a few years now. I'm in a relationship but somehow have managed to hide my PIED to an extent by being able to get some form of an erection when it's time for sex but I either fail miserably or have the most insane premature ejaculation ever it's over before it's started.

Anyways, the positive! I woke up with decent morning wood this morning! Hopped straight into a bath. It was early, like 4am... Without touching myself or any fantasy I gained a pretty moderate erection! No where near 100%, maybe not even 80%... But that's a big improvement for me. The depths of this addiction are almost unearthly in my case.

The bad news... I fell back asleep in bed shortly after and was kind of entertaining a few sexual thoughts without really feeling turned on. I had a wet dream whilst dreaming with a flaccid like penis. Grr... Nothing is ever straightforward.

Anyhow, that's a bit of food for thought for me. I know, categorically... 100% I can and will beat this addiction AGAIN. I once went 80 days no PMO when I was 20 and COMPLETELY cured my erectile dysfunction but unfortunately relapsed and got sucked back in. I'm sure it's going to take a lot longer almost 7 years on but I can assure you guys this thing is beatable.

Final tip, I think having no sexual thoughts for a period of months is the best plan to succeed. This means no sex, no fantasy, no intamacy at all. Only then can the brain heal fully. Take care!