A Progressive Challenge-A different kind of challenge- all levels

Day 38/45
Overslept the whole day! Not pissed off about it though. I think I needed the rest.
I had a porn dream yesterday night just after falling asleep. To my surprise, I woke myself up immediately, and started to think about something else, using the "name 3 things.." technique! Wow, I am starting to have dream control. This is awesome.

day 7/90 . I have a sort of block to express my emotions. I would like to be more confident to have more social interactions. it is as if i am turned off when i am in group and the others make fun of me because i am so silent. I know they do that because they want i am more symphatetic but pmo is a great restraint. So i am trying to take part this challange, to do the reboot. I had a streak of 70 days and same type but never completed the reboot. i know during this challenge i have to try to improve myself in many aspects of my life as this one of social interaction
From where you are in the process, don't worry about it yet. It will come, sooner or later. Know that you are on the good path, and that sooner or later, the benefits will come.
My experience with social stuff is that it just gets better by itself - one day you find yourself talking to someone all relaxed and easy-going.
You should read Josh's great post about this same thing I quote it in this post.

Day 9.
I noticed that I stopped caring about certain things and to have less negative thoughts throughout the day which is awesome!
I also noticed that for some reason I started to love dogs (a lot),
I'm not really sure why is it happening (not that it's a bad thing) but I just wanted to share it with you guys. Any ideas? :confused:

Don't get me wrong, not in a sexual way lol
** And I still have some urges to MO (not something too serious at this point)
LOL! Dogs are the best, they are always happy and content to live in the moment. They are always up for a walk, they also like to just hang out and take a nap. Very inspiring to us anxious and wired humans. I think I know exactly what you mean.

2/8 and have thoughts in my head of very dark things which I kick out and try not too linger on. Finding it hard to sleep at tines. Putting this down to my weekend relapses. Just want to reach next Monday.
You are going through the hardest time, day 2-5 is the darkest period. There is light on the other side. Keep going!

Today is Day 33 for this challange.

Yesterday i didn't go for any physical exercise like i used to go each 32 days before that i think made nightfall for me.
Having too much anxiety because of that, not liking my face skin as well, feeling fatiged. Hope everything gets well.
I don't think its relapse, it was just a natural phenomenon which happened to me without any thought and all.

Guys you need to disspate energy which you were dissipating while M.
Do as much exercise you can that will make your recovery faster i guess.
Suggestions are welcome :)
Cheers :)
You are really aware of yourself, you see this day of no exercise as a potential threat. That is self-knowledge. Good job, keep it up. Exercise is important, for sure!

Hey, I had a run in with someone at the golf course yesterday night. She's a senior so she's a bit older. We don't really know each other I've just seen her around because we're on the same golf course. But today We talked for a good 2 hours straight. It felt weird. I wasn't really thinking about anything when we talked I was in the moment and didn't get ahead of myself. I can't remember the last time I had a conversation with a girl without thinking about sex didn't really pop up. I was never bad with girls but was never great. When you think about it I did pretty well considering I was never even thinking about the conversation when I was talking to girls. But yesterday it was like I was a different person. I finally had my wits back. When I was younger I was always funny and witty with quick one-liners. So for me It was really inspiring to see progress. The conversation was everywhere. From here boyfriend cheating on her with her best friend to my fear of big fish in lakes. But even though the conversation might have been about something bad there was always humor. Most importantly the conversation was fun. I also wasn't being pushy. I let her talk and the convo just flowed. Something I used to always do is push the conversation when it should really end. But yesterday I didn't care if it ended I had no fear. It was a cool experience just wish I was like this before I went down to the states.
This was a great post. Thank you for sharing. I am happy for you, and inspired by your story of naturalness coming back.
 
You are really aware of yourself, you see this day of no exercise as a potential threat. That is self-knowledge. Good job, keep it up. Exercise is important, for sure!

But my complete day has gone waste it seems, there is full anxiety today, not liking it at all, after having beautiful days before. Feeling kinda lost. But i have not repeated mistake of not doing exercise today. Hope everything will be better tomorrow .
 
I relapsed today. This time I am very dissappointed at myself. Day 0 of 10
 
But my complete day has gone waste it seems, there is full anxiety today, not liking it at all, after having beautiful days before. Feeling kinda lost. But i have not repeated mistake of not doing exercise today. Hope everything will be better tomorrow .
Life is full of ups and downs, don't worry about it. I don't think you wasted the day at all - you didn't PMO! And IME on the hard days you learn the most.

I relapsed today. This time I am very dissappointed at myself. Day 0 of 10
Spend a few minutes thinking about what was going on before you did it. What thoughts went through your head before you decided to relapse? Were you trying to avoid something, were you stressed about something? Why did you reach out for P?
It's probably difficult to pin down the complete reason, but if you get a broad idea of the situation, you can try and figure out what you could have done instead of pmo.
Was there any "early warning" signs, that you could have used to get out and go for a walk or anything?

You can get to 7 days again. Let's do it.
 
12/14

I am just enjoying my life at the moment. The last months I have become more social, and more sympathic. I’m better at socialising, with girls too. For a big part this is because of NoFap. I’m happy and thankful because of that!
Hey, I had a run in with someone at the golf course yesterday night. She's a senior so she's a bit older. We don't really know each other I've just seen her around because we're on the same golf course. But today We talked for a good 2 hours straight. It felt weird. I wasn't really thinking about anything when we talked I was in the moment and didn't get ahead of myself. I can't remember the last time I had a conversation with a girl without thinking about sex didn't really pop up. I was never bad with girls but was never great. When you think about it I did pretty well considering I was never even thinking about the conversation when I was talking to girls. But yesterday it was like I was a different person. I finally had my wits back. When I was younger I was always funny and witty with quick one-liners. So for me It was really inspiring to see progress. The conversation was everywhere. From here boyfriend cheating on her with her best friend to my fear of big fish in lakes. But even though the conversation might have been about something bad there was always humor. Most importantly the conversation was fun. I also wasn't being pushy. I let her talk and the convo just flowed. Something I used to always do is push the conversation when it should really end. But yesterday I didn't care if it ended I had no fear. It was a cool experience just wish I was like this before I went down to the states.
Nice! Thanks for sharing this.
But my complete day has gone waste it seems, there is full anxiety today, not liking it at all, after having beautiful days before. Feeling kinda lost. But i have not repeated mistake of not doing exercise today. Hope everything will be better tomorrow .
You can’t have only good days. Tomorrow will be better hopefully.
Day 9.
I noticed that I stopped caring about certain things and to have less negative thoughts throughout the day which is awesome!
I also noticed that for some reason I started to love dogs (a lot),
I'm not really sure why is it happening (not that it's a bad thing) but I just wanted to share it with you guys. Any ideas? :confused:

Don't get me wrong, not in a sexual way lol
** And I still have some urges to MO (not something too serious at this point)
Dogs are just awesome. When I’m on a good streak, I am more softhearted and emotional. A common thing like a video of a happy puppy for example can cause a lump in my troath. Nothing wrong with that.
 
Shit. Shit, shit, shit. I thought I was through this relapse binge thing, but it's been a week and I'm not out of the cloud yet. I think I didn't catch it early enough to keep some of my habits, and I pretty much reverted to the way I used to be, so it's not easy getting back into this. However, I'm getting there, and learning my triggers all over again. I'm also realizing around the time my relapse started I started getting exposed to a stimulus I had never been exposed to throughout my NoFap journey, so that definitely contributed to it. Back to 0/4.
 
Shit. Shit, shit, shit. I thought I was through this relapse binge thing, but it's been a week and I'm not out of the cloud yet. I think I didn't catch it early enough to keep some of my habits, and I pretty much reverted to the way I used to be, so it's not easy getting back into this. However, I'm getting there, and learning my triggers all over again. I'm also realizing around the time my relapse started I started getting exposed to a stimulus I had never been exposed to throughout my NoFap journey, so that definitely contributed to it. Back to 0/4.
Good to do an analysis like that for everyone. Thank you.
 
Just wanted to share some motivation with anyone in here struggling with this. Well, more dissuasion from PMO than motivation, but it'll serve the same purpose. 2-3 weeks ago, I was at the top of my game, and I hadn't PMO'd in nearly 60 days. My skin was clear, I had tons of energy and social skills and confidence to spare. In my PE class, we did benchmarks for pushups and crunches. I could do 48 pushups before my arms gave out, and over 200 crunches. However, right before I hit 60 days, I relapsed, and actively chose not to do anything to stop it. I've never regretted a decision more. My energy is gone. Somehow, in less than a month, I've gone down to being able to do about 25 pushups and 50 crunches before my muscles give out. I've started getting a crap ton of acne all over my face, and my skin is a lot less smooth overall. As well, a decent amount of my confidence has gone away, and my old creepy anxious self is peaking out from time to time. Stay strong everyone. Don't make the same mistake I did. Don't get too curious and fall off that cliff.
 
Day 10/100
I just woke up from a dream that I had about my ex-crush because I saw there something that I didn't want to see.
(Actually, it wasn't that big of a deal [wasn't a big deal at all] but because the wounds are still fresh it hurts.)
Anyway, I'm not gonna let it take me down.
I'm feeling great, no urges, no negative thoughts, NOTHING!
I can't believe that I'm already on day 10! :confused:
Dogs are just awesome. When I’m on a good streak, I am more softhearted and emotional. A common thing like a video of a happy puppy for example can cause a lump in my troath. Nothing wrong with that.
HAHA, exactly bro!
Good job for reaching to day 12 by the way!
LOL! Dogs are the best, they are always happy and content to live in the moment. They are always up for a walk, they also like to just hang out and take a nap. Very inspiring to us anxious and wired humans. I think I know exactly what you mean.
You're right!
I guess that that's exactly what I need right now.
I'm glad to see that you are on day 38, keep up the good work man!

UPDATE :
I just got back home from the university and I'm feeling awesome!
I'm very motivated and happy (even hyper at some point)
I really don't know how to explain to you the amount of happiness that I have right now.
I also feel extremely confident about myself. :)
 
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Just wanted to share some motivation with anyone in here struggling with this. Well, more dissuasion from PMO than motivation, but it'll serve the same purpose. 2-3 weeks ago, I was at the top of my game, and I hadn't PMO'd in nearly 60 days. My skin was clear, I had tons of energy and social skills and confidence to spare. In my PE class, we did benchmarks for pushups and crunches. I could do 48 pushups before my arms gave out, and over 200 crunches. However, right before I hit 60 days, I relapsed, and actively chose not to do anything to stop it. I've never regretted a decision more. My energy is gone. Somehow, in less than a month, I've gone down to being able to do about 25 pushups and 50 crunches before my muscles give out. I've started getting a crap ton of acne all over my face, and my skin is a lot less smooth overall. As well, a decent amount of my confidence has gone away, and my old creepy anxious self is peaking out from time to time. Stay strong everyone. Don't make the same mistake I did. Don't get too curious and fall off that cliff.
This is possibly one of the best posts EVER on this thread, certainly one of the most important. Many of the guys on this thread (including me) have flirted with the idea that someday, they're cured and they can go back to some controlled form of masturbation. But after studying numerous accounts by guys who went 60 days or 90 days or 6 months or even a year, I've discovered that only in about 1 or 2 out of 10 can M on rare occasions and their addiction wasn't very bad to begin with. The fact is, the rest tried it and were unable to get a long streak going again for a while. Remember that your brain now knows the tricks you used, so you have to try some new things.

Guys, there is really no going back. I know Deth well enough at this point to believe that he will get a new streak going soon and I'm pretty sure he won't make the same mistake twice. For the rest of you, I wouldn't try it. I will not try it. You're either fully committed or you're not. I will echo what Deth says, though. Nofap is definitely worth it. The benefits are real. Don't doubt me.
 
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