A question about PIED and OCD I haven't seen asked (any experts here to help?)

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by hervesta, Apr 29, 2021.

  1. hervesta

    hervesta Fapstronaut

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    So I have OCD and got PIED in October 2020, and through trial and error managed to get my current streak of 150+ days PMO free, to the point of not even desiring porn anymore (but of course not wanting porn doesn't fix PIED). and during my streak, more so in the latter half of my current journey, I, like everyone else with OCD escaping porn and it's effects to unwire and rewire to real life, have been getting intrusive thoughts about various things I looked at through my 5 years of porn addiction. Now this felt normal to me at first as this was a common occurrence for fellow OCD rebooters, but in the recent weeks (I should note that I am in a flatline right now) I have been getting a ton flashbacks to really old things I watched the first year I got addicted. Which brings me to my questions...

    1. Is my brain pruning these images to my memory a good sign or a bad sign?

    2. Will this ever die down as I go into the later months like when I hit month 7?

    3. Most importantly, will this stop my PIED from ever going away? I need to know this mostly because I don't wanna waste all this time abstaining from PMO only to not get anything done here...
     
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  2. mohaimen

    mohaimen Fapstronaut

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    the thing I know is fantasizing on porn,to your brain is the same thing as watching porn.I myself is actually trying to stop too and I suffer from pied too.So try your best to not think about it
     
  3. hervesta

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    I appreciate you trying to help, and I know I cannot answer my own question, but flashbacks and fantasy are 2 different things. Of course it's possible to dwell on them and fantasize about them, but flashbacks are intrusive thoughts that cause distress not arousal. Fantasy would be like me holding onto a thought of an image or scene and expanding on it.
     
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    Ye so basically im no help here
     
  5. hervesta

    hervesta Fapstronaut

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    don't put yourself down like that, do you actually have flashbacks/intrusive thoughts or do you just fantasize?
     
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    mohaimen Fapstronaut

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    it just intrusive I actually don't wanna look at woman that way I just want see them as human and watch tvs show like a regular person. But i try my best to control it
     

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