A question about urges,

Of course, I agree. There are times when the brain is more vulnerable for sure and this would be when relapse is more likely to occur. I'd say it happens when you are bored, stressed, dont have a plan on what you are doing to defeat urges, or arent thinking of consequences of using.

 

Morning and evening when I'm lying in bed - nearly impossible.

Any other time of day - cake walk. I wouldn't jerk off if you showed me some porn, unzipped my pants, and gave me a few warm-up strokes.

 

Yes, There were times when I was able to control the urge but sometimes the urges just takes over as if you no longer have control over your rational mind. You make decisions based on the current feeling and PMO is the only way to handle it.
After observing why I PMO, I realized that there were times when I didn't really had an urge to begin with, I wanted a urge to come to me so I can have a nice PMO session. As if I was starting a cycle, where doing PMO for entertainment is at one end of the cycle and at the opposite side of this cycle, was the urge that I did not asked for. This very urge was impossible to control, and whenever I give in to this urge, the cycle continues, that's just my hypothesis.

 

Yeah I think I get that. There's comfort in the routine of jerking off. We want that feeling at the end, even if we don't want to jerk off. So we do it anyway to get that comforting feeling. Just like drugs.

 

Very true indeed, I was actually shaking at a night due to an urge as if I was a meth head of some sort. I feel decent now that I was able to have some control over it. :')