A quick reflection after 30 days.

Hey guys,

I posted this in my journal. But thought it could fit in nicely here. Feel free to cruise by and say hi, the link is in my signature.

Day 30 Log Update.

One month. This a huge milestone for me. I have not made it 30 days without porn for probably 5 years. Very proud. I heard a good quote recently, “Sometimes it can take 10 years just to get to that 1 year that changes you.” If I can make it to 30 days, anyone can. Keep going. Things will start clicking eventually.

Reflecting on this a lot today. I took some time to really think about what I want, specifically, out of this. Obviously there’s a lot of things that quickly come to mind: be more social, have a stronger natural sex drive, reduce anxiety, etc. (Basically all the exciting benefits we read about)

But what it really comes down to, what I think I want most is personal freedom. I want to be free of dealing with this addiction, not so the rest of my life can be easy, but so I can approach it unencumbered. I will never live up to my full potential as long as porn remains in my life. There will always be some lingering regret. What if?

What opportunities will I miss out on if porn sticks around?

Who will I miss out on meeting?

What career moves won’t happen?

Life isn’t perfect, and there will always be ups and downs, but I’m tired of always blaming the downs on porn. I want to fail on my own terms, and succeed on my own terms. I’m fighting for my freedom.

Ive been feeling pretty blah for the last few days. Porn is tempting when you’re feeling blah. But I fully intend to persevere. I’m excited to keep going and see what’s waiting for me.

 

Nice dude! Stay strong and get ready to write up a 30 day report. Looking forward to reading it.

100% feel you on how long this fight has been going on. It’s exhausting if you think about it too long lol. That’s ok though, all of this will ultimately shape us into better men.

Thanks! Some tips I’d give:

I listen to motivational speeches/affirmations every morning. They get my mind really set on who I want to be for the rest of the day.

If you don’t have an accountability partner, go get one. I finally enlisted the help of my best friend a year ago, and it helps a lot. There’s a whole section in this forum where you can find one.

Take care of your diet! Eating crappy makes you feel crappy which makes you act crappy.

Stay active on this site. Engage with people. Start a journal and update it regularly, helps keep you accountable.

Annnd obviously, never ever give up or stop. Treat every relapse as the thing that finally makes you succeed, cause eventually it will.