I was working on my computer tonight researching on medical and mental health forums for psychology. My brain is still getting used to the massive reset, so it's craving a dopamine rush and seeking a reward after all my hard work journaling. Out of no where, the strongest urge to go on a former P related forum that I used to visit when I had the fetish came over me. The ol'Devil knows I dont watch P, so he tried to bait me into fetish forums to "research" the brain, and then that would lead me to P... since I was already researching forums for work. Crafty. I immediately finished up my work, shut down my computer, brushed and flossed my teeth, put clothes in the laundry, and went straight to bed. My brain and body started putting up a fight like a spoiled toddler. I just comforted my heart and told myself "You are learning what true love is." Not today, Satan. The mission is not EVER.