a true struggle

I was on a streak of 24 days until it got sadly broken, but then I started another streak which lasted for 5 days. The worse thing is, I've been consecutively fapping for the past 4 days. It's like just before I do it, my mind goes, "fuck this you wont get anything or anyone in this life anyways" and sigh it truly is hard. I commend all of you who are doing nofap bc this is definitely one of the hardest tests of life, to me.It's something you need to learn, how to control yourself, so that you can lead a better and more controlled life. It's extremely difficult bc it's engineered in our monkey brains to act like this if it sees explicit content, and it isn't truly worth it, our monkey brain is dead wrong.Some things I'm telling to myself and to you here.

First: if you want to do nofap and you're harshly struggling with it, you need to start being strict with yourself! What does that mean? Think of the way how you start to fap. Why you do it,how you do it,when you do it,with what you do it. After covering points like these, you need to restrict yourself from these and only allow these when you're with people. Example:you need to stop using the internet at night and actually go to sleep bc night is one of the times people do it since almost all other people are asleep at this time. You can only use it when you're with friends or family or have company or you need to use it for smth. Other than that, no using it. Like that, you need to learn about your wicked ways and improve them.

Second: write a list of things to do when you're having urges. When you have high urges, you need to learn to distract yourself from your monkey brain. Have a list of turn offs to do when you're feeling horny. It'll be hard but not possible. Example: if you feel like fapping, call your mother or a close female relative immediately and normally talk to her. Your moral senses will drive porn out of your mind instantly, it does help. Try to do things like these.

Third: fapping isn't just a habit you're avoiding, you're going to have to replace it. At this point, it's practically a habit with the amount of times I've done this. Nofap isn't just about avoiding porn, it's about how to replace such a vile thing which we're horribly addicted to in our lives with a thing that will actually help us in life. Learn new hobbies and skills, or at least try to. You just have to try with your heart.

Fourth: avoid sites where you might get turned on. Like social media, it's no work to come across a slightly arousing picture or video these days bc of our hypersexualized world so you just need to avoid these sites. And avoid looking at pictures of women too, which might slightly arouse your interest. This is hard too, but sacrifices have to be made.

Fifth: avoid looking at women you don't know. Now not everyone might agree to this, but a source of porn is women, and if you really want to discipline yourself, avert from looking at women you don't know, or at least for a certain time, until you can successfully do nofap and have FULL CONTROL OVER YOURSELF. Following the first rule, you have to be strict with yourself in order to be successful.

I know everything here is disorderly bc I wrote it in a rush so sorry about that. I am also aware everything here is easier said than done, but if we want to truly do this, we have to dedicate ourselves and make sacrifices. Best of luck friends!