A whisper in the dark

So I am here. Today. Lonely, had urges from hell but listene to much music today. Music as a replacement for PMO. these days are hard as hell to overcome.... feelings of loneliness, feeling of jobsituation, feeling of have to move out of the apartment, feeling of not succeed at the workplace....feelings of must watch watch p, must m,. No I am not giving in this time. I will try my best. But triggers are everwhere and hard to resist... i have feelings of sadness. The sad, empty feeling. I have been to a therapist though. I think PMO has destroyed my chances of living with another female person maybe for the rest of my life. I am beginning to accept the feelings....

 

Yes....i am seriously thinking of move to another place.. away from this environment... far, far away.... but i dont want to disappoint anybody If a choose to act to these decisions