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So yeah guys, I'm here since 2017 and my first streak was 277 days hard mode and 345 days no PM.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/day-30-girls-are-starting-to-look-interesting.110333/
Still, I started to slip despite losing virginity on that streak, the relationship ended and I had only messed up heart and mind. I took a lot of fighting and failing. Despite going to church regularly I felt only worse because of religion because the feeling of shame of guilt increased in the church environment. Because I was in the church but not in Jesus. I would pray God for a few seconds in the moorning to help me and then after a few hours, I would jerk off. I failed and failed because I didn't had a personal relationship with God. PMO only distanced me from God and made me hate Him and myself.

Then one winter moorning in Sunday I relapsed and like every Sunday went to church. Suddenly I understood God's plan cause In summer I said to a friend that I don't understand people who go to church every day and still have addictions. The friend said that people are weak. But I didn't understand it. Now in winter right before church, I understood - God was teaching me to understand weak people who can't fight PMO, despite going to church. This enlightenment helped to stay clean for a few months but this wasn't the key to success cause afterward relapses came anyways.

The turning point was last year right before summer started, cause in Bible studies when prayer time came I wanted to pray for the whole summer on a straight road. But brother in Christ said - why whole summer? Better all the time! And we prayed and since then it felt easy to stay clean. Also, I finally created a relationship with God because PMO was not in the way anymore and I stopped to hate God, despite that He always loved me and was good to me.

This streak is not based on fighting the body or satan on my own. This is a spiritual streak - fighting the root of the problem. Usually, heavy addictions come from pain in the heart - when person relapse and afterwards regrets why he did that.
Its the evil spirits and satan that controls people who don't have personal relationship with God. No one on his own can fight satan and his tempations. Cause satan is stronger than humans. We must stick with God and hide behind Jesus in order to overcome, stay protected and win addictions. Jesus have won all the fights, tempations but He never sined. So all I had to do is stick with Jesus to take part of His win.

This video shows how without God we are looking for wrong things and become empty -
 
Daisetsuu said:
Wow. Thank you so much for this bro, saving this and will check back time and time again for motivation. I thank God that He revealed this to you. For whom the Son sets Free, is Free indeed :)
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Yes, man. All you have to do is hold tight to Jesus - pray, read Bible and pray again. Put God first, make Him your priority. If you have any questions feel free to ask.
 
biggame5k said:
How were you able to say no to Porn and masturbation and escorts this long?
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Well because my heart changed. God gave me new heart - heart of flesh instead heart of stone. Heart longs for what it's filled with. So if you watch P or something than heart will want even more of that. But if you worship God, read His Word, spend whole day in faith and so on, you will want even more God. Whatever you do the most that's in your heart, you will want more. Give God best place in your heart and see what happens.
Besides I never went to escords, I had sex only with one girl in my life, but I wasnt addicted to sex so much to have sex with any girl I dated. Was lucky to find joy in worshiping soon after relationship ended cause when I stayed single I chose to give all attention to church to fill up emptiness.

When you start to know Jesus you have full truck with old garbage. But as love grows, old things become unneeded and you can let them go eventually one by one. Jesus cleans that truck until it becomes empty. He lifts up that old dirty Teddy bear and asks:"Do you really need this? :)" You say - yes. And he puts that back. Then next time He lifts that old dirty Teddy bear up and asks:" Do you really need this? :)" You say - no. And He throws that old thing out. So with years truck becomes emptier and He fills it up with his Light, love, peace, joy and other fruits of His spirit.

Thing is you might have those old things close to heart. Maybe you have soft feelings to that porn star or can't forget that escort or girl you slept with or fantasized about. - A lot of trash might be in that truck. But as the relationship with Jesus grows, so grows your Love for Him and like in that song - "Love will conquer all and the walls will fall." Love cleanses and gives you a better life and makes you forget and see no value in old things that didn't do you any good. God is love. And the highest form of faith is love.
 
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pcmaster said:
I wanted to pray for the whole summer on a straight road. But brother in Christ said - why whole summer? Better all the time!
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I see a clear parallel with the goal most people set for themselves here: eg 30 days or 90 days. If that is your goal, chances are really high you'll relapse after you made it that far. Having the right mindset is important.

Thanks for sharing your story!
 
God is good. for 45 days i managed to not masturbate. and as soon as i started going to church less and stopped praying as often. the light inside me slowly pulled back, and as light leaves darkness naturally fills it's place.

Jesus is a massive help for me to ivercome this addiction. Without him I couldn't do it.

edit* as light left, i relapsed and the day after relapsing got stomach problems, a fewer, started coughing...
 
Midlifebreakthrough said:
I see a clear parallel with the goal most people set for themselves here: eg 30 days or 90 days. If that is your goal, chances are really high you'll relapse after you made it that far. Having the right mindset is important.

Thanks for sharing your story!
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Well, little goals are important cause you can't set your first goal - never again. Especially it doesn't work that way after relapse cause one has to be clear in his mind, a while without relapse. Small goals help to achieve big goals. For example, my first goal 3 years ago was 30 days, then 60, then 90, and so on, my main goal was a year clean. Sure it doesn't stop even after year cause just like winning that trophy in competition, dedicated athlete don't celebrate much, don't sleep on his laurels, but asks - whats next? So just when you achieve one goal, always set the next goal. For example, you can see it with Arnold Schwarzenegger - he didn't even keep his trophies from winning Mister Olympia, but send them home to parents. Also if you look at Jay Cutler then after winning his Olympia he didn't go for 6 months offseason as many bodybuilders do, but the very next day he was in the gym in the morning and lifting heavy weights. So yeah attitude to goals can be very different and there are winners mindset and lazy mindset. The choice is ours.
 
pcmaster said:
So yeah guys, I'm here since 2017 and my first streak was 277 days hard mode and 345 days no PM.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/day-30-girls-are-starting-to-look-interesting.110333/
Still, I started to slip despite losing virginity on that streak, the relationship ended and I had only messed up heart and mind. I took a lot of fighting and failing. Despite going to church regularly I felt only worse because of religion because the feeling of shame of guilt increased in the church environment. Because I was in the church but not in Jesus. I would pray God for a few seconds in the moorning to help me and then after a few hours, I would jerk off. I failed and failed because I didn't had a personal relationship with God. PMO only distanced me from God and made me hate Him and myself.

Then one winter moorning in Sunday I relapsed and like every Sunday went to church. Suddenly I understood God's plan cause In summer I said to a friend that I don't understand people who go to church every day and still have addictions. The friend said that people are weak. But I didn't understand it. Now in winter right before church, I understood - God was teaching me to understand weak people who can't fight PMO, despite going to church. This enlightenment helped to stay clean for a few months but this wasn't the key to success cause afterward relapses came anyways.

The turning point was last year right before summer started, cause in Bible studies when prayer time came I wanted to pray for the whole summer on a straight road. But brother in Christ said - why whole summer? Better all the time! And we prayed and since then it felt easy to stay clean. Also, I finally created a relationship with God because PMO was not in the way anymore and I stopped to hate God, despite that He always loved me and was good to me.

This streak is not based on fighting the body or satan on my own. This is a spiritual streak - fighting the root of the problem. Usually, heavy addictions come from pain in the heart - when person relapse and afterwards regrets why he did that.
Its the evil spirits and satan that controls people who don't have personal relationship with God. No one on his own can fight satan and his tempations. Cause satan is stronger than humans. We must stick with God and hide behind Jesus in order to overcome, stay protected and win addictions. Jesus have won all the fights, tempations but He never sined. So all I had to do is stick with Jesus to take part of His win.

This video shows how without God we are looking for wrong things and become empty -
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Important !! Please read

So I’m 16 and I’ve pmod since 10 but fapped a lot more then porn and I’ve had HOCD for a while and it’s so fucked, and now I don’t have the motivation/urge to get a girl anymore. I fap a lot. Why is this and will me doing nofap help with me wanting a gf/urge to get one or nah??
 
Dreko229 said:
Important !! Please read

So I’m 16 and I’ve pmod since 10 but fapped a lot more then porn and I’ve had HOCD for a while and it’s so fucked, and now I don’t have the motivation/urge to get a girl anymore. I fap a lot. Why is this and will me doing nofap help with me wanting a gf/urge to get one or nah??
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it definately will help. but keep in mind that losing the hocd and porn induced fetishes will take long time and it won't be easy. you just gotta be persistant.
 
Dreko229 said:
Important !! Please read

So I’m 16 and I’ve pmod since 10 but fapped a lot more then porn and I’ve had HOCD for a while and it’s so fucked, and now I don’t have the motivation/urge to get a girl anymore. I fap a lot. Why is this and will me doing nofap help with me wanting a gf/urge to get one or nah??
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Man, girl won't solve your problems. I say forget about girls until you are at least 18 or even older. Cause in order to overcome the addiction you have to be single. Otherwise, girlfriend would be only like a bandage on PMO wound and once she's gone or you get bored with her after few years, PMO will come back. Besides you know, you cant have sex before marriage if you want to obey God's rules and don't sin like in that video in OP. Also, its wrong to get married to have sex cause it won't be a happy marriage that way. Focus for a few years on being friends with girls - talk with them, but don't touch them, get to know them, are interested in their personality, and have many friends that are girls. That way you will do yourself favor in a way that you will get to know how girls brains work and how to handle them well. That will be very useful down the road when you get married. Having sex won't make you smarter about girls since chemicals from sex will only mess your brains even more and might take years to start to thing normal again.
That's all I have to say to you. You can read my previous posts or my posts in other threads if you want more of what I know.
 
Im sorry but dont want to be a dick but trying to persuade god on this is unbelievable, YOU support god and it helped YOU but is not likely to help anyone much more. This is a scientific page for people who want a proper scientific answer
 
MrAlkali said:
Im sorry but dont want to be a dick but trying to persuade god on this is unbelievable, YOU support god and it helped YOU but is not likely to help anyone much more. This is a scientific page for people who want a proper scientific answer
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Here you are wrong my friend. Nofap have helped many to better their relationship with God. If you read replies then I'm, not the only one. Besides nofap has a really strong Christian section so there are a lot of us believers. Forum rules allows me to post anything God related in my topic if it helped me. Believe me when I say I tried a scientific approach too. My first streak was based on cold showers, no sugar, no caffeine, and so on. But I was weak morally cause my morals were not so good. I allowed myself more and more until I eventually relapsed. My first streak was based on a clean mind but my mind became polluted.

Sure I understand when you can't see God as a helper. Because when you don't have a personal relationship with God, you don't see the strength that can help overcome moments of weakness. But believe me when I say that God is persuading you. He is inviting and waiting for you. But He is also a gentleman and doesn't pressure anything but gives a free choice of will. Jesus is knocking on your door but the handle is only on your side - only you can open that door to let Him in.
 
pcmaster said:
Man, girl won't solve your problems. I say forget about girls until you are at least 18 or even older. Cause in order to overcome the addiction you have to be single. Otherwise, girlfriend would be only like a bandage on PMO wound and once she's gone or you get bored with her after few years, PMO will come back. Besides you know, you cant have sex before marriage if you want to obey God's rules and don't sin like in that video in OP. Also, its wrong to get married to have sex cause it won't be a happy marriage that way. Focus for a few years on being friends with girls - talk with them, but don't touch them, get to know them, are interested in their personality, and have many friends that are girls. That way you will do yourself favor in a way that you will get to know how girls brains work and how to handle them well. That will be very useful down the road when you get married. Having sex won't make you smarter about girls since chemicals from sex will only mess your brains even more and might take years to start to thing normal again.
That's all I have to say to you. You can read my previous posts or my posts in other threads if you want more of what I know.
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How come I’m lackin the urge/energy to get a gf
 
MrAlkali said:
Im sorry but dont want to be a dick but trying to persuade god on this is unbelievable, YOU support god and it helped YOU but is not likely to help anyone much more. This is a scientific page for people who want a proper scientific answer
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cresyhorse said:
it definately will help. but keep in mind that losing the hocd and porn induced fetishes will take long time and it won't be easy. you just gotta be persistant.
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How come I’m lackin the urge/energy to get a gf
 
pcmaster said:
So yeah guys, I'm here since 2017 and my first streak was 277 days hard mode and 345 days no PM.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/day-30-girls-are-starting-to-look-interesting.110333/
Still, I started to slip despite losing virginity on that streak, the relationship ended and I had only messed up heart and mind. I took a lot of fighting and failing. Despite going to church regularly I felt only worse because of religion because the feeling of shame of guilt increased in the church environment. Because I was in the church but not in Jesus. I would pray God for a few seconds in the moorning to help me and then after a few hours, I would jerk off. I failed and failed because I didn't had a personal relationship with God. PMO only distanced me from God and made me hate Him and myself.

Then one winter moorning in Sunday I relapsed and like every Sunday went to church. Suddenly I understood God's plan cause In summer I said to a friend that I don't understand people who go to church every day and still have addictions. The friend said that people are weak. But I didn't understand it. Now in winter right before church, I understood - God was teaching me to understand weak people who can't fight PMO, despite going to church. This enlightenment helped to stay clean for a few months but this wasn't the key to success cause afterward relapses came anyways.

The turning point was last year right before summer started, cause in Bible studies when prayer time came I wanted to pray for the whole summer on a straight road. But brother in Christ said - why whole summer? Better all the time! And we prayed and since then it felt easy to stay clean. Also, I finally created a relationship with God because PMO was not in the way anymore and I stopped to hate God, despite that He always loved me and was good to me.

This streak is not based on fighting the body or satan on my own. This is a spiritual streak - fighting the root of the problem. Usually, heavy addictions come from pain in the heart - when person relapse and afterwards regrets why he did that.
Its the evil spirits and satan that controls people who don't have personal relationship with God. No one on his own can fight satan and his tempations. Cause satan is stronger than humans. We must stick with God and hide behind Jesus in order to overcome, stay protected and win addictions. Jesus have won all the fights, tempations but He never sined. So all I had to do is stick with Jesus to take part of His win.

This video shows how without God we are looking for wrong things and become empty -
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Thank you. I admit my relationship with god might be rough right now as I'm always falling back. Especially behind my friends, family, and co workers who are moving forward. I'm struggling with my will power and yes I do have some underlying pain in my heart right now. I can't find woman interesting enough anymore and my intentions to talk to them are extremely low. The badge below me is a decent streak but I relapsed yesterday. I have to start again today as a reminder.

I should do the same like you. My relationship was excellent in the past. I feel as if I have been a little blind from this time.

Thank you for the uplift and I hope I can have a clean streak this next go.
 
Dreko229 said:
How come I’m lackin the urge/energy to get a gf
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because you have an easy fix that can cost you your life. (pmo).
you feel like you don't want to put in the effort of getting a gf because you fap all the time.. when you stop fapping you get more willpower and girls become hotter and you also get a need for emotions.
emotions that you silence by fapping all the time.
 
pcmaster said:
So yeah guys, I'm here since 2017 and my first streak was 277 days hard mode and 345 days no PM.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/day-30-girls-are-starting-to-look-interesting.110333/
Still, I started to slip despite losing virginity on that streak, the relationship ended and I had only messed up heart and mind. I took a lot of fighting and failing. Despite going to church regularly I felt only worse because of religion because the feeling of shame of guilt increased in the church environment. Because I was in the church but not in Jesus. I would pray God for a few seconds in the moorning to help me and then after a few hours, I would jerk off. I failed and failed because I didn't had a personal relationship with God. PMO only distanced me from God and made me hate Him and myself.

Then one winter moorning in Sunday I relapsed and like every Sunday went to church. Suddenly I understood God's plan cause In summer I said to a friend that I don't understand people who go to church every day and still have addictions. The friend said that people are weak. But I didn't understand it. Now in winter right before church, I understood - God was teaching me to understand weak people who can't fight PMO, despite going to church. This enlightenment helped to stay clean for a few months but this wasn't the key to success cause afterward relapses came anyways.

The turning point was last year right before summer started, cause in Bible studies when prayer time came I wanted to pray for the whole summer on a straight road. But brother in Christ said - why whole summer? Better all the time! And we prayed and since then it felt easy to stay clean. Also, I finally created a relationship with God because PMO was not in the way anymore and I stopped to hate God, despite that He always loved me and was good to me.

This streak is not based on fighting the body or satan on my own. This is a spiritual streak - fighting the root of the problem. Usually, heavy addictions come from pain in the heart - when person relapse and afterwards regrets why he did that.
Its the evil spirits and satan that controls people who don't have personal relationship with God. No one on his own can fight satan and his tempations. Cause satan is stronger than humans. We must stick with God and hide behind Jesus in order to overcome, stay protected and win addictions. Jesus have won all the fights, tempations but He never sined. So all I had to do is stick with Jesus to take part of His win.

This video shows how without God we are looking for wrong things and become empty -
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Hello buddy.

Congrats...I joined the forum just a few months after you. I will still stuck while you have made a lot of progress. Keep going...I will use your story as inspiration and I try to make it to the other side.

Good Luck
 
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