So yeah guys, I'm here since 2017 and my first streak was 277 days hard mode and 345 days no PM.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/day-30-girls-are-starting-to-look-interesting.110333/
Still, I started to slip despite losing virginity on that streak, the relationship ended and I had only messed up heart and mind. I took a lot of fighting and failing. Despite going to church regularly I felt only worse because of religion because the feeling of shame of guilt increased in the church environment. Because I was in the church but not in Jesus. I would pray God for a few seconds in the moorning to help me and then after a few hours, I would jerk off. I failed and failed because I didn't had a personal relationship with God. PMO only distanced me from God and made me hate Him and myself.
Then one winter moorning in Sunday I relapsed and like every Sunday went to church. Suddenly I understood God's plan cause In summer I said to a friend that I don't understand people who go to church every day and still have addictions. The friend said that people are weak. But I didn't understand it. Now in winter right before church, I understood - God was teaching me to understand weak people who can't fight PMO, despite going to church. This enlightenment helped to stay clean for a few months but this wasn't the key to success cause afterward relapses came anyways.
The turning point was last year right before summer started, cause in Bible studies when prayer time came I wanted to pray for the whole summer on a straight road. But brother in Christ said - why whole summer? Better all the time! And we prayed and since then it felt easy to stay clean. Also, I finally created a relationship with God because PMO was not in the way anymore and I stopped to hate God, despite that He always loved me and was good to me.
This streak is not based on fighting the body or satan on my own. This is a spiritual streak - fighting the root of the problem. Usually, heavy addictions come from pain in the heart - when person relapse and afterwards regrets why he did that.
Its the evil spirits and satan that controls people who don't have personal relationship with God. No one on his own can fight satan and his tempations. Cause satan is stronger than humans. We must stick with God and hide behind Jesus in order to overcome, stay protected and win addictions. Jesus have won all the fights, tempations but He never sined. So all I had to do is stick with Jesus to take part of His win.
This video shows how without God we are looking for wrong things and become empty -
