A year clean - waited this for 3 yeaaars !

satan is us... he is not a character with tail and horns, there is no such character in the Bible... it's a pagan invention. Satan simply means enemy of God... and it's us when we do the opposite of what he says
There is such character in Bible if you read book of Job. satan have copied the kingdom of God too. Sure even Christians have two sides -the Holy side and the satanic side. People without God are by default evil. We fight evil side for our whole life and feed Holy side. Dog who is fed better wins the race. So choose carefully which dog or wolf you feed. Cause in the end reward is eternal life in Heaven or eternal flames in hell.
 
So yeah guys, I'm here since 2017 and my first streak was 277 days hard mode and 345 days no PM.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/day-30-girls-are-starting-to-look-interesting.110333/
Still, I started to slip despite losing virginity on that streak, the relationship ended and I had only messed up heart and mind. I took a lot of fighting and failing. Despite going to church regularly I felt only worse because of religion because the feeling of shame of guilt increased in the church environment. Because I was in the church but not in Jesus. I would pray God for a few seconds in the moorning to help me and then after a few hours, I would jerk off. I failed and failed because I didn't had a personal relationship with God. PMO only distanced me from God and made me hate Him and myself.

Then one winter moorning in Sunday I relapsed and like every Sunday went to church. Suddenly I understood God's plan cause In summer I said to a friend that I don't understand people who go to church every day and still have addictions. The friend said that people are weak. But I didn't understand it. Now in winter right before church, I understood - God was teaching me to understand weak people who can't fight PMO, despite going to church. This enlightenment helped to stay clean for a few months but this wasn't the key to success cause afterward relapses came anyways.

The turning point was last year right before summer started, cause in Bible studies when prayer time came I wanted to pray for the whole summer on a straight road. But brother in Christ said - why whole summer? Better all the time! And we prayed and since then it felt easy to stay clean. Also, I finally created a relationship with God because PMO was not in the way anymore and I stopped to hate God, despite that He always loved me and was good to me.

This streak is not based on fighting the body or satan on my own. This is a spiritual streak - fighting the root of the problem. Usually, heavy addictions come from pain in the heart - when person relapse and afterwards regrets why he did that.
Its the evil spirits and satan that controls people who don't have personal relationship with God. No one on his own can fight satan and his tempations. Cause satan is stronger than humans. We must stick with God and hide behind Jesus in order to overcome, stay protected and win addictions. Jesus have won all the fights, tempations but He never sined. So all I had to do is stick with Jesus to take part of His win.

This video shows how without God we are looking for wrong things and become empty -
Praise the Lord Brother.
God bless You
I am happy for you
keep going❤️
 
There is such character in Bible if you read book of Job. satan have copied the kingdom of God too. Sure even Christians have two sides -the Holy side and the satanic side. People without God are by default evil. We fight evil side for our whole life and feed Holy side. Dog who is fed better wins the race. So choose carefully which dog or wolf you feed. Cause in the end reward is eternal life in Heaven or eternal flames in hell.
I'm sorry but you should read better, the Bible is a book full of allegories, in the book of Job satan is the spirit that dwells in the people who plot against him
 
if you notice it also in the paintings satan appears only from the Middle Ages, there are no drawings of satan that have come down to us from the Jews, this is because it was invented by the Catholic Church in the Middle Ages (Egyptians instead drew divinities and adhes) hell and heaven do not exist, it exists the resurrection after death
 
if you notice it also in the paintings satan appears only from the Middle Ages, there are no drawings of satan that have come down to us from the Jews, this is because it was invented by the Catholic Church in the Middle Ages (Egyptians instead drew divinities and adhes) hell and heaven do not exist, it exists the resurrection after death
I will make one comment. In the whole bible hell or gehenna is actually meantioned more times than heaven.
 
after the day of judgment
And that day is coming soon. But if hell and Heaven don't exist where will people go after the resurrection?
I'm, not gonna argue with you since you can believe what you want. But I'm gonna stick with my own faith and let you be.
Just we all read the Bible and each one is understanding writing differently. The problem between Christians is that many try to convince them to believe how they believe. But in the end, everyone gonna be responsible for himself in front of God. I wrote how I believe and how Jesus helped me. Your relationship with God is your own responsibility.
 
Thank you again for such a great post. As a Christian since I was a kid and someone addicted for 20 years and constantly trying to battle this it gives me renewed hope to overcome it through your posts. Thank you.
 
Thank you again for such a great post. As a Christian since I was a kid and someone addicted for 20 years and constantly trying to battle this it gives me renewed hope to overcome it through your posts. Thank you.
Yeah man, it takes personal relationship with God to overcome this. Pmo ruins this relationahip amd every time one comes closer to God, satan is attacking stronger. So it takes breakthought.
 
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