I relapsed again, but I kind of feel like it bled together with the first one. I have a new perspective on this now because I had an honest conversation with my girlfriend about my issue for the first time where we discussed how this has been a habit of mine for a very long time. Then we listed the reasons why I should stop doing this and I think that is a big deal and an important to step on the path to real recovery. I am going to make a post on this site every single day to keep myself accountable throughout this journey. I also notice that this is not a battle to be taken in days a time, but rather is a fight in a more minute by minute constant alertness mentality.